Ultimate Truth
I can't think straight....
I never wanted to be attractive ,in any sense of the word, in a girls' eyes. It's not about self-loathing, or anything. I've never been comfortable with the admiration I feel when I do something just in front of girls. Don't let the right hand know what the left is doing. or however that saying goes.
I don't think relationships are their to solely to castrate men anymore, but I still don't want to be in one. But the fact is, I don't have a choice but to not be in one. I wont lie about my sensitive/ affectionate nature. I wont deny it but I don't submit it. I don't like being alone, but I don't mind it either. It doesn't matter, It'll all be over soon.
I tried to be more upbeat than this, I really meant to. Please understand, I really wanted to sound positive, overall I think I did. but in a very downbeat way, I'm sorry.
I never wanted to be attractive ,in any sense of the word, in a girls' eyes. It's not about self-loathing, or anything. I've never been comfortable with the admiration I feel when I do something just in front of girls. Don't let the right hand know what the left is doing. or however that saying goes.
I don't think relationships are their to solely to castrate men anymore, but I still don't want to be in one. But the fact is, I don't have a choice but to not be in one. I wont lie about my sensitive/ affectionate nature. I wont deny it but I don't submit it. I don't like being alone, but I don't mind it either. It doesn't matter, It'll all be over soon.
I tried to be more upbeat than this, I really meant to. Please understand, I really wanted to sound positive, overall I think I did. but in a very downbeat way, I'm sorry.