Heart on the sleeve
This is going to be a much, MUCH more serious entry than my last. Mostly because I'm going to bear (bare?) a bit of my soul and I'm hoping for the positive feedback that I usually get.
I... I'm thinking I like someone. It's been like things have moved really fast these last few days in LA, and I think that's how it's supposed to be. But I've been spending a lot of time with some people, and there's one that I feel i'm really getting to know. I... think it's sort of an odd match but there's something about her that seems to draw me in. And I feel great during the times she's around and when we say goodbye at the end of the night i feel like im... missing something, all of the sudden?
I know enough about myself to know what's in my way. I know that I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve, as they say. I also tend to get worked up over people and set myself up for a downfall... I thought I made my way past this by getting into a relationship for a while, but in a way I mostly feel like all I did was get myself out of the situation for a while. Sure I'm more mature, but I don't want to make the same mistakes anymore. I want to do things right...
Anyway, I don't want to fuck up a friendship, I don't think i will if i were to get rejected but I don't want it awkward. Also, i feel... I dunno, maybe there's no signal I'm picking up coming back, but I do feel like I want to try.
Here I am sitting and thinking about it and I'm just going to work myself up over it, so if someone could send some wisdom out my way, that would be great. This one will only be on LJ for reasons of 1. they don't know where this journal is, and 2. no one replies on facebook anyway.
Thoughts? Any advice is welcome,
Jonathan
I... I'm thinking I like someone. It's been like things have moved really fast these last few days in LA, and I think that's how it's supposed to be. But I've been spending a lot of time with some people, and there's one that I feel i'm really getting to know. I... think it's sort of an odd match but there's something about her that seems to draw me in. And I feel great during the times she's around and when we say goodbye at the end of the night i feel like im... missing something, all of the sudden?
I know enough about myself to know what's in my way. I know that I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve, as they say. I also tend to get worked up over people and set myself up for a downfall... I thought I made my way past this by getting into a relationship for a while, but in a way I mostly feel like all I did was get myself out of the situation for a while. Sure I'm more mature, but I don't want to make the same mistakes anymore. I want to do things right...
Anyway, I don't want to fuck up a friendship, I don't think i will if i were to get rejected but I don't want it awkward. Also, i feel... I dunno, maybe there's no signal I'm picking up coming back, but I do feel like I want to try.
Here I am sitting and thinking about it and I'm just going to work myself up over it, so if someone could send some wisdom out my way, that would be great. This one will only be on LJ for reasons of 1. they don't know where this journal is, and 2. no one replies on facebook anyway.
Thoughts? Any advice is welcome,
Jonathan