I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head.
Last night was quite a night. Went to Cabs for 80's night, wearing red tights, a short skirt and glittery makeup. Apparently I was quite appealing this night above all other nights at Cabaloosa's; I had numerous ass-touchings, I was hit on by a few guys and one girl, and I had a close friend comment on how provocative my dancing was.
It was surprising. It was good.
There was this one couple that blew me away. They were wearing all black, and they melded into each other. I've never seen any couple dance so completely, so sensually. It was exotic to watch. Seductive. I hope to see them again when I go back next week.
There wasn't any drama among the group, which is surprising (like Valentine's day). The only drama that went on was my own insecurities and overreactions with the faun. He contacted me during my time at the club, and it was definitely not wanted. In the end, I talked to a close friend (who I was afraid to break the subject to at first). Well, texted her. I didn't want another suitemate knowing of our conversation.
She said this: well i think its best to consider him a really good friend & try not to involve your heart so you dont wind up hurt
It's hard. Annoyingly so.
On another note, my body has been wanting to cry. I go into these moments when I'm alone where my body is telling me that it's time to start sobbing uncontrollably, but I don't let it happen.
That's going to bite me in the ass later.
It was surprising. It was good.
There was this one couple that blew me away. They were wearing all black, and they melded into each other. I've never seen any couple dance so completely, so sensually. It was exotic to watch. Seductive. I hope to see them again when I go back next week.
There wasn't any drama among the group, which is surprising (like Valentine's day). The only drama that went on was my own insecurities and overreactions with the faun. He contacted me during my time at the club, and it was definitely not wanted. In the end, I talked to a close friend (who I was afraid to break the subject to at first). Well, texted her. I didn't want another suitemate knowing of our conversation.
She said this: well i think its best to consider him a really good friend & try not to involve your heart so you dont wind up hurt
It's hard. Annoyingly so.
On another note, my body has been wanting to cry. I go into these moments when I'm alone where my body is telling me that it's time to start sobbing uncontrollably, but I don't let it happen.
That's going to bite me in the ass later.