Let's see how many acronyms I can use.
It sucks to be lonely and without anyone to talk with about things that interest me. Which would be Abyss and roleplay right now. Or rather, Abyss RP. But lol don't you know DRs aren't good for real CR. Like actual games are any better. Hah. Yeah, I know I'm boring
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I've never been much into talking over IM, let alone RPing via messages. On a few occasions just chatting with friends has led to scenes, though I think they were pretty craptacular on my part from being so awkward. And I'd love to talk RP with you! I just... don't know about what. Social failure is me. :x
I suppose I'm in the minority for not finding actual games to be enjoyable. There's too much pressure and competition for attention from what I've seen. With the exception of certain douchebags, DRs have been a pleasant experience. A good many of my friends were met that way. Yeah, these days there is very few consistent players at any DR, it seems. Abyss' waning popularity and new interests are likely why.
I do apologize for the spiteful tone of this post. Like you say, I'm a very hypocritical and resentful person. My past experiences have led me to believe that while most other people have a chance to be happy, I never will so there's no point in trying to fool myself into thinking otherwise. At times I want to change, so that I and those who care about me will be happier, but on the other hand I've taken the 'be yourself' thing to heart. I'm a quirky fruitcake of a failure and I (kinda) like myself that way. On the bright side, I'm actually a good deal better than I used to be. :D; Volumes of issues, I tell you.
Change = Not Good in my mind. I like things to remain the same so I know what to expect and, more importantly, how to handle it. I really do hate when something rocks my nice little boat in life, even if the damn thing is taking on water. That's also probably one of the reasons I prefer to keep a few close friends. I want to feel connected with people and they with me. If we know each other well, it makes for a better friendship, I think. Superficial acquaintances aren't what I go for.
We haven't known each other that long and if it's not your thing, I'm okay with that! There's several people on my friends list that I don't know as well as I'd like, but I can understand not wanting to get, for lack of a better term, 'intimate', with every person you meet. Especially online, when people might not be who you think they are. <<;
TL;DR: I think you're spot on and I'm happy with our friendship. :Db
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