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[solerika]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH JESUS FUCKING CHRIST WHY IS THAT THE ONE TIME. THE. ONE. TIME. I ACTUALLY HAVE SOME FORM OF ART THAT I'M LOVING, THE ONE TIME I'M DOING SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE, AND MY GOD DAMN PIECE OF SHIT MACHINE HAS TO GO AND FREEZE FOR NO GODDAMN FUCKING REASON?! WHY??! IT DOESN'T MATTER THAT IT WAS NOTHING MORE THAN A FUCKING TEGAKI COMMENT. I WAS FINALLY HAPPY WITH SOMETHING THAT I SPENT ALL DAY ON, AND FUCKING LIFE/KARMA/WHATEVER BULLSHIT YOU BELIEVE IN HAS TO GO AND THROW MY EFFORT DOWN THE FUCKING DRAIN! I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE A DAMN SCREENCAP OF IT. I'M SO GODDAMN FED UP WITH THIS SHIT. WHY CAN'T SOMETHING GO RIGHT FOR ME FOR ONCE? IS THIS THE THANKS I GET FOR BEING NICE AND TRYING TO HELP PEOPLE AND GENERALLY WISHING THINGS WERE BETTER IN THIS WORLD? FINE. FUCK NICETIES. I'LL BE JUST LIKE ALL THE OTHER FUCKING ASSHOLES WITHOUT A DAMN HEART IF IT MEANS THINGS WILL QUIT BEING SHITTY. I CAN TAKE A HINT.

This is why I'll never get to be happy. I always get fucking screwed. At everything. Nothing ever goes right for me. I'm a miserable fucking failure, my life is a fucking failure, and everything will always be a miserable fucking failure. I'm just going to stop taking my fucking antibiotics in hopes that I can go back to sleeping three-fourths of the day away without giving a damn. Just. Fuck everything. I'm tired of this shit. I quit.

/getting off before she throws this fucking thing through a window