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Why do my symptoms still have so much power to scare the crap out of me? It's not like these symptoms are new anymore.... I've had them quite frequently over the past two years, so what's the deal? Why do I still get so afraid that certain symptoms mean my Lupus is killing me, even though somewhere in my mind, I KNOW it probably isn't true? Why do images of hospital beds and IVs and nurses 24/7 keep popping into my head? I should have accepted this as normal by now.... Well, I have in some parts of my mind I guess... But, at the same time, I haven't... How does that work?