Trying too hard
Ever read someones personal thoughts or overhear a casual conversation, where one person is talking non-stop and the other is just smiling and nodding, and think to yourself 'hot damn you are one pretentious asshole'?
I think what brought this all on was a conversation I had recently with a fellow mechanic and a fellow tire tech. The tire tech has a very intersting car that he has worked on a little bit while the mechanic has also had similar experience...I on the other hand have done very little in the way of customizing my car. As I listened intently to the converstation as it was going back and forth I found myself struck with an urge to interject and of course the first thing that happens after I do so is 'the look'.
You know the type...when you say something completely out of left field and everyone looks at you like you are crazy/stupid and does the little 'pat' on your head thing instead of exposing you for the fraud you are. And you go on throughout the day even though you know inside they are saying 'LIAR YOU LIAR YOU KNOW YOUR NOT REALLY INTO CARS YOUR A LYING LIAR' and thats what people would say to me. Then you know as I'm talking to a customer they might say 'well done taking care of that guy' even though inside they are really thinking 'YOU PRETENTIOUS LIAR. WHY DON'T YOU JUST TELL THEM THE TRUTH THAT YOU REALLY HAVE NO CLUE ABOUT ANYTHING YOU TALK ABOUT EXCEPT THAT ITS ALWAYS WHAT EVERYONE ELSE AGREES WITH YOU NO GOOD LIAR!' and it was somewhere between people saying 'STOP PRETENDING BY COVERING YOUR LIES WITH COLORFUL WORDS AND CLICHE'S THAT YOU CAN'T SPELL AND/OR USE INAPPROPRIATLY...YOU KNOW WHEN YOU SAY THE SAME WORD OVER AND OVER AGAIN IT MAKES PEOPLE KNOW YOU'RE A LIAR!' and 'YOU CHEATED YOU LIAR YOU CHEAT ON EVERYTHING YOU CAN AND YOU DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT THAT YOU JUST PRETEND TO BECAUSE YOU THINK ITS THE EASY PATH' that I realized that I was just a mess and needed to really evaluate myself.
I'm thinking about getting serious about this customization stuff but most importantly I'm thinking of changing my wardrobe...people are starting to think I'm a goth and ...I'm just not cool enough for that. (With this lying streak of mine I might accidentally pretend I'm an elite goth and make the mistake of losing my sense of self).
Well thats all from me.
I think what brought this all on was a conversation I had recently with a fellow mechanic and a fellow tire tech. The tire tech has a very intersting car that he has worked on a little bit while the mechanic has also had similar experience...I on the other hand have done very little in the way of customizing my car. As I listened intently to the converstation as it was going back and forth I found myself struck with an urge to interject and of course the first thing that happens after I do so is 'the look'.
You know the type...when you say something completely out of left field and everyone looks at you like you are crazy/stupid and does the little 'pat' on your head thing instead of exposing you for the fraud you are. And you go on throughout the day even though you know inside they are saying 'LIAR YOU LIAR YOU KNOW YOUR NOT REALLY INTO CARS YOUR A LYING LIAR' and thats what people would say to me. Then you know as I'm talking to a customer they might say 'well done taking care of that guy' even though inside they are really thinking 'YOU PRETENTIOUS LIAR. WHY DON'T YOU JUST TELL THEM THE TRUTH THAT YOU REALLY HAVE NO CLUE ABOUT ANYTHING YOU TALK ABOUT EXCEPT THAT ITS ALWAYS WHAT EVERYONE ELSE AGREES WITH YOU NO GOOD LIAR!' and it was somewhere between people saying 'STOP PRETENDING BY COVERING YOUR LIES WITH COLORFUL WORDS AND CLICHE'S THAT YOU CAN'T SPELL AND/OR USE INAPPROPRIATLY...YOU KNOW WHEN YOU SAY THE SAME WORD OVER AND OVER AGAIN IT MAKES PEOPLE KNOW YOU'RE A LIAR!' and 'YOU CHEATED YOU LIAR YOU CHEAT ON EVERYTHING YOU CAN AND YOU DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT THAT YOU JUST PRETEND TO BECAUSE YOU THINK ITS THE EASY PATH' that I realized that I was just a mess and needed to really evaluate myself.
I'm thinking about getting serious about this customization stuff but most importantly I'm thinking of changing my wardrobe...people are starting to think I'm a goth and ...I'm just not cool enough for that. (With this lying streak of mine I might accidentally pretend I'm an elite goth and make the mistake of losing my sense of self).
Well thats all from me.