Why can people be so childish?
Ok so , Today was nice. The funeral was at 11:00am, I dropped the boys off at school, me Travis at McDonalds and had breakfast then went and got my nanna. Nanna and I got to the funeral home at 9:45 and stayed there with my aunt Lori. Donnie was actually being good to her today. I did a lil worse today than I did yesterday. My aunt asked that it be kept short and sweet and the preacher was great at keeping it that way for her. He read to verses from the Bible , sang one song and my nanna had a poem to read. She started the poem and made it only to the second line and lost it. I h ad no seen this poem even once before today. When she got upset she looked at me and said "Kay can you finish this for me?" I got up and finished it off for her. It was sooooo pretty!!!! I managed to do it without losin it UNTIL I got back to my seat. My best friend Juanita was there with me and her, my nanna and I all road together. After the services we headed to the grave site then to Donnie's sisters for a spread. It was really nice. My aunt is actually holding up a lot better than I thought she would. The service really helped and there was some really good points the preacher made. Not only that but Lindsay just looked so at peace instead of how she did look in the hospital.
Ok, I do have to say something about the "anonymous" comment in my journal yesterday. Number one, not only did I find it funny, I actually laughed when I read it but I also thought it was really cowardly like. I don't know who it was, I didn't even try to find out cuz personally I don't care. And if you feel the need to comment again anonymous or under a name then go for it. This is what I don't understand. Anyone that knows me will know that shit like that does NOT get to me. This is the internet and while I love all the people that journal with me and I do take them very seriously, I also know there are people on here that are out to just stir up shit and try to hurt people. If thats your intent then move elsewhere cuz it won't work with me. I know whats going on in my life, and I have no reason to make any of it up. This is MY journal so I write about what I want, and I assure you its all the truth. Maybe I do lie when I say "I'm doing ok". Yea, I will admit I have lied about how I'm doing several times but because I didn't feel that it needed to be a bit deal. My feelings are normally something I can control, I've learned to. As far as what happens in my life, I have no reason to make shit up. I'm not bored, I have plenty in my life to keep me busy and active so trust me there is NO need to make anything up lol. So if ya think I'm lieing about anything then ok, whatever, its a free world you can think what ya want. Next, you've seen my pictures and you don't think I'm that pretty? Ok thanks for the opinion. I actually agree with ya on that one, I don't think I'm that pretty either. But then again I don't care. I'm more the "what ya see is what ya get, and if you don't like then don't look". I could honestly care less if someone doesn't like me. Yes I'll admit, I'm not one of the skinny, preppy, perfect lil girls. I don't want to be. I don't wanna look fake or whatever. And I know a lot of guys like that type, but thats not me and I won't ever pretend to be. So, like I said if ya don't like what I look like then don't look. Won't break my heart. Last thing, you said I'm a whore? LOL this is what cracked me up with the whole comment. Whore???? I thought that meant sleeping around or with a lot of guys or whatever. Ya know I really don't know the true def of it. BUT I can count the number of guys on less than one hand. I don't sleep around I couldn't. I'm more the hopeless romantic, has to be in love or love the person before I can sleep with them. So, calling me a whore isn't hurting me at all either cuz I know I'm not one. If ya wanna call me ugly, stupid, bitch whatever lol then go for it but at least make sure there is SOME truth to it. I will say this,
undaunted did a journal today and in it, it stated something about internet drama. She made the comment about how people get on here and stir shit up when they could be doing something more important or meaningful. So, if you have kids then instead of throwing out cheap thoughts about me then go hold your kids, trust me...you never know when the last time you will hold them could be, same with a bf of husband. Don't take the time to try to hurt someone, specially someone you don't even know. Why am I doing this instead of hugging my kids? Cuz I've held them a lot this afternoon and right now they are eating, but trust me ....I will hold them all afternoon and tell them how much I love them. Anyways, whoever you are....I feel bad for ya.
So in closing...I'm done rambling lol. I get in these moods from time to time lol. AHHHHH and on a funnier note....I took the boys to school this morning, and I had flip flops on from Old Navy. Ever get them bad boys wet???? Ohhh good lord, I have done this a few times now! I was walking the boys into the school and stepped in a puddle, got my foot soaked. I made it into the building but while I was carrying Gage to his classroom I slid right off the damn flip flop and hit the ground. THose suckers are slippery when wet! So needless to say the kids and teachers just ate that up and had a nice morning laugh. But hey, thats what I'm good for! lol
Finally, thanks for everyone that has been there for me through losing Lindsay and for everything else!!!! I can never tell you how much it means to me.
I love you all!
*hugs*
Ka
Ok, I do have to say something about the "anonymous" comment in my journal yesterday. Number one, not only did I find it funny, I actually laughed when I read it but I also thought it was really cowardly like. I don't know who it was, I didn't even try to find out cuz personally I don't care. And if you feel the need to comment again anonymous or under a name then go for it. This is what I don't understand. Anyone that knows me will know that shit like that does NOT get to me. This is the internet and while I love all the people that journal with me and I do take them very seriously, I also know there are people on here that are out to just stir up shit and try to hurt people. If thats your intent then move elsewhere cuz it won't work with me. I know whats going on in my life, and I have no reason to make any of it up. This is MY journal so I write about what I want, and I assure you its all the truth. Maybe I do lie when I say "I'm doing ok". Yea, I will admit I have lied about how I'm doing several times but because I didn't feel that it needed to be a bit deal. My feelings are normally something I can control, I've learned to. As far as what happens in my life, I have no reason to make shit up. I'm not bored, I have plenty in my life to keep me busy and active so trust me there is NO need to make anything up lol. So if ya think I'm lieing about anything then ok, whatever, its a free world you can think what ya want. Next, you've seen my pictures and you don't think I'm that pretty? Ok thanks for the opinion. I actually agree with ya on that one, I don't think I'm that pretty either. But then again I don't care. I'm more the "what ya see is what ya get, and if you don't like then don't look". I could honestly care less if someone doesn't like me. Yes I'll admit, I'm not one of the skinny, preppy, perfect lil girls. I don't want to be. I don't wanna look fake or whatever. And I know a lot of guys like that type, but thats not me and I won't ever pretend to be. So, like I said if ya don't like what I look like then don't look. Won't break my heart. Last thing, you said I'm a whore? LOL this is what cracked me up with the whole comment. Whore???? I thought that meant sleeping around or with a lot of guys or whatever. Ya know I really don't know the true def of it. BUT I can count the number of guys on less than one hand. I don't sleep around I couldn't. I'm more the hopeless romantic, has to be in love or love the person before I can sleep with them. So, calling me a whore isn't hurting me at all either cuz I know I'm not one. If ya wanna call me ugly, stupid, bitch whatever lol then go for it but at least make sure there is SOME truth to it. I will say this,
undaunted did a journal today and in it, it stated something about internet drama. She made the comment about how people get on here and stir shit up when they could be doing something more important or meaningful. So, if you have kids then instead of throwing out cheap thoughts about me then go hold your kids, trust me...you never know when the last time you will hold them could be, same with a bf of husband. Don't take the time to try to hurt someone, specially someone you don't even know. Why am I doing this instead of hugging my kids? Cuz I've held them a lot this afternoon and right now they are eating, but trust me ....I will hold them all afternoon and tell them how much I love them. Anyways, whoever you are....I feel bad for ya.
So in closing...I'm done rambling lol. I get in these moods from time to time lol. AHHHHH and on a funnier note....I took the boys to school this morning, and I had flip flops on from Old Navy. Ever get them bad boys wet???? Ohhh good lord, I have done this a few times now! I was walking the boys into the school and stepped in a puddle, got my foot soaked. I made it into the building but while I was carrying Gage to his classroom I slid right off the damn flip flop and hit the ground. THose suckers are slippery when wet! So needless to say the kids and teachers just ate that up and had a nice morning laugh. But hey, thats what I'm good for! lol
Finally, thanks for everyone that has been there for me through losing Lindsay and for everything else!!!! I can never tell you how much it means to me.
I love you all!
*hugs*
Ka