Stress.
I know when I start stressing out on stuff because I tense up and my temples start twitching.
I just hate that we can't move in to our apartment yet. I don't feel comfortable in Austin right now. I would MUCH rather be with Steve in the Valley, but I know I have to keep truckin' with my life. I told him I was going to drop out of school, cook, clean, decorate, do his laundry and be his house girlfriend. He laughed and said "Awesome" haha. But I wasn't kidding. I've always wanted to be a House Wife. But an educated one. Like have a degree and have it for those "in-case-shit" moments. Maybe I'm old fashioned, but I love cooking and baking and taking care of loved ones. I think it's cute.
Long distance sucks but absense makes the heart grow fonder. I'm sure I'm gonna jump on Steve when I see him this Friday. Whether I'm settled into the apartment or not, I will definitely feel much better with him around. He's taking me out to dinner. I'll really appreciate good food. He knows I've been really lonely up here. :) He's a little piece of heaven/cloud cake. haha. And Rachel, the Twins, Marcos, and Jen will be up also! I'm looking forward to this weekend. REALLY, REALLY looking forward to this weekend.
This is the second night I've slept alone in the temporary apartment. It's really lonely. Everyone's with their boyfriends. 24/7. I really don't know if I'd want to be with Steven ALL the time. I tend to need alone time, too.
I need to learn to relax a little more. Things stress me out way too much. I just feel like if things aren't in order the way they should be, I can't work with anything. Perfectionism gets in the way of production. I've always known that was one of my flaws. On college and scholarship applications, I'd always answer that for the endless "what would you change about yourself" questions. Even in pageants. I need to learn to CHILL OUT.
I hope I do good this semester. I'm looking forward to just science classes. I have the second Biology sequence, Physics 1 and the lab, Organic chemistry and the lab for that. I think I get to wear a lab coat! Exciting. :) It's a bunch of nerdy classes, but those 12 hours should set me straight. It's the very end of my basics.
What the hell is that? How come we pay for school and they're still telling us what to take? Basics takes up practically two years of your life if you go to school the normal four years. Basics is like a harder repeat of high school. High school is a joke. That's why China is becoming the badass, and the US is sucking it up with crappy cars, electronics and gas prices. Three more years of this hell, maybe the next president can undo some of the stuff this idiot has done.
Alright well I have class tomorrow morning at 9, meaning I wake up at 8. Talk to you fools later.
Ciabatta,
Bianca
I just hate that we can't move in to our apartment yet. I don't feel comfortable in Austin right now. I would MUCH rather be with Steve in the Valley, but I know I have to keep truckin' with my life. I told him I was going to drop out of school, cook, clean, decorate, do his laundry and be his house girlfriend. He laughed and said "Awesome" haha. But I wasn't kidding. I've always wanted to be a House Wife. But an educated one. Like have a degree and have it for those "in-case-shit" moments. Maybe I'm old fashioned, but I love cooking and baking and taking care of loved ones. I think it's cute.
Long distance sucks but absense makes the heart grow fonder. I'm sure I'm gonna jump on Steve when I see him this Friday. Whether I'm settled into the apartment or not, I will definitely feel much better with him around. He's taking me out to dinner. I'll really appreciate good food. He knows I've been really lonely up here. :) He's a little piece of heaven/cloud cake. haha. And Rachel, the Twins, Marcos, and Jen will be up also! I'm looking forward to this weekend. REALLY, REALLY looking forward to this weekend.
This is the second night I've slept alone in the temporary apartment. It's really lonely. Everyone's with their boyfriends. 24/7. I really don't know if I'd want to be with Steven ALL the time. I tend to need alone time, too.
I need to learn to relax a little more. Things stress me out way too much. I just feel like if things aren't in order the way they should be, I can't work with anything. Perfectionism gets in the way of production. I've always known that was one of my flaws. On college and scholarship applications, I'd always answer that for the endless "what would you change about yourself" questions. Even in pageants. I need to learn to CHILL OUT.
I hope I do good this semester. I'm looking forward to just science classes. I have the second Biology sequence, Physics 1 and the lab, Organic chemistry and the lab for that. I think I get to wear a lab coat! Exciting. :) It's a bunch of nerdy classes, but those 12 hours should set me straight. It's the very end of my basics.
What the hell is that? How come we pay for school and they're still telling us what to take? Basics takes up practically two years of your life if you go to school the normal four years. Basics is like a harder repeat of high school. High school is a joke. That's why China is becoming the badass, and the US is sucking it up with crappy cars, electronics and gas prices. Three more years of this hell, maybe the next president can undo some of the stuff this idiot has done.
Alright well I have class tomorrow morning at 9, meaning I wake up at 8. Talk to you fools later.
Ciabatta,
Bianca