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My grandmother passed away today.
Or rather we found out today, but she must have passed away last night because her bed wasn't slept in, and her care worker found her at her computer, in the middle of a video game. The coroner said he wouldn't do an autopsy in view of her past heart condition, so they ruled it as a heart attack. She was a best friend to me. We were so close, and I thank God I had the opportunity to live with her. I know her stories and history sometimes better than her own children, and it's not something I plan to forget anytime soon.
The funeral is tomorrow at Benjamins on Steeles Ave. W. at 2:00pm.
We will be "sitting shiva" (Jewish mourning period) at my grandmother's condo just south of Bathurst and Wilson, at 2 Neptune. I will try to post a map here at some point.
I'm trying to stay burried in duty to my family, and sometimes I just get so dizzy from forcing the numbness, that I'm able to stop crying for a while, just to keep my balance. I think the hardest part is that every time I get a phone call, and it's one of her friends, and I have to confirm the rumour that they've heard, I can actually hear the sound of their hearts breaking, and it destroys me. But it shouldn't, because it only means that so many people loved her, and I will never be alone in this sorrow...this, the worst pain I have ever felt.
Or rather we found out today, but she must have passed away last night because her bed wasn't slept in, and her care worker found her at her computer, in the middle of a video game. The coroner said he wouldn't do an autopsy in view of her past heart condition, so they ruled it as a heart attack. She was a best friend to me. We were so close, and I thank God I had the opportunity to live with her. I know her stories and history sometimes better than her own children, and it's not something I plan to forget anytime soon.
The funeral is tomorrow at Benjamins on Steeles Ave. W. at 2:00pm.
We will be "sitting shiva" (Jewish mourning period) at my grandmother's condo just south of Bathurst and Wilson, at 2 Neptune. I will try to post a map here at some point.
I'm trying to stay burried in duty to my family, and sometimes I just get so dizzy from forcing the numbness, that I'm able to stop crying for a while, just to keep my balance. I think the hardest part is that every time I get a phone call, and it's one of her friends, and I have to confirm the rumour that they've heard, I can actually hear the sound of their hearts breaking, and it destroys me. But it shouldn't, because it only means that so many people loved her, and I will never be alone in this sorrow...this, the worst pain I have ever felt.