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I don't understand why I have spent the past few years, probably the best one's I will ever have, ignoring myself and other people and just living a complete lie. If I look back on some of the things I have done, and not done, it all seems so terribly tragic. Not because I didn't have, but that I did have. And I ignored it. It's like I just completely put off everything because of what I thought, and didn't even try to shake it up once in a while. And I know I sound like I'm being all bitchy and complaining right at the moment, but this is completely a reflection only. I'm not gonna make a big deal of anything and decide to mourn and suffer over the ashes like some people I know.
I intend on leaving everything that can be left behind, and just shouting "fuck it" for myself and starting over.
So, just in case any of you want to know why I seem unusual, yes, it was something that you did. But you can still change that as far as I'm concerned if you care.
For those of you on the other end, hopefully I won't be such a jackass and complete idiot as I probably have been. Also hopefully, I won't just drop this like I've done every other time and go back to the old grind (Man that's sad when you call your life the 'grind' at 17).
And for everyone that is just confused by this, which is probably going to be a lot of people, I don't really know why I'm writing about this, but I think I should because it might be a pretty big turning point in my life.
I intend on leaving everything that can be left behind, and just shouting "fuck it" for myself and starting over.
So, just in case any of you want to know why I seem unusual, yes, it was something that you did. But you can still change that as far as I'm concerned if you care.
For those of you on the other end, hopefully I won't be such a jackass and complete idiot as I probably have been. Also hopefully, I won't just drop this like I've done every other time and go back to the old grind (Man that's sad when you call your life the 'grind' at 17).
And for everyone that is just confused by this, which is probably going to be a lot of people, I don't really know why I'm writing about this, but I think I should because it might be a pretty big turning point in my life.