the unexpected ride
kevin came up to see iain this weekend, and last night i took him with me into town to go to a gestalt meeting. it was so great to see everyone again, great is truly an understatement for how settling it was to be in the company of those whom i respect so much and have seen so rarely. kate offered to lend me a dress so i could go to the bar and see tony (which i really wanted to do because i missed his birthday party on account of a nightmare), and so i found myself going to the wave something or other with kevin. it was like old times for us in that we split up as soon as we got there and then got together when it was time to leave and compared stories... but it was a very powerful night for me. i got to see people whom i have missed and not seen because of my distance and tendency toward being a hermit... mike and sus, kate and dave, tony, jason, gothicmonk, laura, gavin, megs and mel and alex, d, kelli and kelly, spethman, so many others, it seems everyone i ever had fondness in my heart for showed up there last night, and they were all telling me how weird it was because it seemed like reunion night.
i tried very hard to make some peace with some people whom i have missed terribly for some time now, and it felt good in my heart that i did that. i don't know when i will go back to a night like that, as my life now is pretty full with family and art and music and my school, and i don't get much play time... but it was a good experience for me, a very healing one on some levels and a very heart opening one on others. i had forgotten how much my friends mean to me, and if you are my friend i am so sorry i have vanished for so long, and i am so honored to have gotten to see you and exchange words and glances and hugs and energy. my heart grew three sizes last night, and although it will probably be some time before i am out again, my thoughts and wishes for health, courage and peace are with everyone i saw last night, and i have such deep gratitude for sharing part of this version of reality with them all, no matter the length of linear time in which we are physically together.
i tried very hard to make some peace with some people whom i have missed terribly for some time now, and it felt good in my heart that i did that. i don't know when i will go back to a night like that, as my life now is pretty full with family and art and music and my school, and i don't get much play time... but it was a good experience for me, a very healing one on some levels and a very heart opening one on others. i had forgotten how much my friends mean to me, and if you are my friend i am so sorry i have vanished for so long, and i am so honored to have gotten to see you and exchange words and glances and hugs and energy. my heart grew three sizes last night, and although it will probably be some time before i am out again, my thoughts and wishes for health, courage and peace are with everyone i saw last night, and i have such deep gratitude for sharing part of this version of reality with them all, no matter the length of linear time in which we are physically together.