If Life is so short..
love is a word that explains how i feel for you
and when you're in my arms, all my dreams come true.
Another day goes by. More thoughts filter through. Its a never ending struggle between what you wish you could let go of, and what drives the madness. I have been thinking, about so many things. About life, death, and those things that happen in between the time we are here on this earth.
I have held on to so many negative energies throughout the years of hurt and frustration , that I sometimes forget that there are lighter things in life. There are good things to look forward to in life. Its not as bad as I imagine it is, nothing is truly that bad. For there is always someone out there fighting a battle even worse then my own. And its in realizing those things that there is peace to be had in this little world of mine.
There are things I have been fighting against for the past few months. Conflicts in my own mind and heart. About my father. And I think I have come to a conclusion of what to do with all the noises in my head, maybe then, I can find my voice and some peace of mind. These days are too short, and you never know what could happen. Maybe its my time to take that leap and reach out once again, instead of letting the shadow live on in that part of my life. Its not something I want to live with anymore. I have a voice, and he shall hear it. Now to work up that courage.
I am a blessed woman. To have a wonderful and amazing man by my side. My husband is the most amazing person I know. He has been through so much shit in his life, yet he is kind , thoughtful and caring to those he loves. I admire him. And I am a better person knowing that he is there by my side through it all. I also have a wonderful family (we may have our differences, but they will always be there ), and close friends whom I'd do anything for, and visa versa. :)
So. Is it time to stop worrying? To let go of all that anguish? To be able to enjoy this life to the fullest?
Soon. the answer comes soon.
thanks for listening to my ramble.
~K
*bows head in memory to grandpa* 16 years ago today.