An unsent birthday wish...
It's hard to know where this all should begin. I guess that night I woke up from my nap to your message... I knew where things where going, and I knew that it was inevitable but I must have somehow expected a little more respect as an acknowledgement of what we had. Nut Just some very unthought through text message...
Either way on this day, I want to say that I wish you the best. Our relationship didn't go without lessons being learned. At least on this side. I know do much about myslef now, and have discovered just how strong I can be. How much there is out there for me to do and you humbled me to all these possibilities. I'm still me and I love being who I am but best qualities were hightened, my aspirations were shown to me in a light that helped me accomplish (so simply) something I never even thought I would do.
Every woman has a secret, some deeper than others and someone unforgivable than most. But her is mine, my little piece of me... The part I kept from you just so that I had something to call my own. Something I could escape to on my own... This isn't a secret, many people know it exists and others to come will surely see it but I can't help but know what if I can give you any other insight to me, that some how it will help you, open up, trust, believe, or form the smallest amount of faith in people then here you go.
This is my life as far back as I can really remember.... Most things you must take with a grain of Sand and others you must understand that yet came from a place of pure emotion. One thing I must have said is that I write best in misery... Well if u notice there isn't much of us here. And it really was simply bc as I sat down to write I found that I didn't need an outlet. You were my outlet, my escape from my own twisted world. You're everything I aspire to be and you are what I look for in everyone I meet. I spent this past summer alone, happily alone. After months of smothering the last thing I wanted was to be, not only in anything, but I didn't even want to deal with even the smallest oz of a male. I was happy with myslef and my friends :)
I have found a peace in myself that I didn know existed. One I hoped and prayed over and over for and I finally got it.
Either way on this day, I want to say that I wish you the best. Our relationship didn't go without lessons being learned. At least on this side. I know do much about myslef now, and have discovered just how strong I can be. How much there is out there for me to do and you humbled me to all these possibilities. I'm still me and I love being who I am but best qualities were hightened, my aspirations were shown to me in a light that helped me accomplish (so simply) something I never even thought I would do.
Every woman has a secret, some deeper than others and someone unforgivable than most. But her is mine, my little piece of me... The part I kept from you just so that I had something to call my own. Something I could escape to on my own... This isn't a secret, many people know it exists and others to come will surely see it but I can't help but know what if I can give you any other insight to me, that some how it will help you, open up, trust, believe, or form the smallest amount of faith in people then here you go.
This is my life as far back as I can really remember.... Most things you must take with a grain of Sand and others you must understand that yet came from a place of pure emotion. One thing I must have said is that I write best in misery... Well if u notice there isn't much of us here. And it really was simply bc as I sat down to write I found that I didn't need an outlet. You were my outlet, my escape from my own twisted world. You're everything I aspire to be and you are what I look for in everyone I meet. I spent this past summer alone, happily alone. After months of smothering the last thing I wanted was to be, not only in anything, but I didn't even want to deal with even the smallest oz of a male. I was happy with myslef and my friends :)
I have found a peace in myself that I didn know existed. One I hoped and prayed over and over for and I finally got it.