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What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there? What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness? What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?
I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you. You are special to me and you have made a difference in my life. You showed me thing i never thought existed and even if u didnt do them on purpose or tried to show them to me so i would notice it ... i did . i said something last night, honestly i was kidding but i guess ur right it didnt sound or look or anthing that way i wa- it wasnt something to say that i should have said, it was really stuid of me especially for the fact that it sounded bad and im not gonna lie a little trashy, well i hope u can forgive me, or i guess not forgive but understand that i kno i said something stupid and u dont hold it against me...
im excited im going to youth group tonight !!! =] ii promise i want a cd of like all the songs its super good, u kno i realized u dont have to spend the whole week in church or the whole day or ur life dedicated to god, i love him just as much as the next person who worships him and i honestlly believe iv been blesse by him cuz anything and everything i pray in true and full faith the the max i recieve, the stickest situations the worst feeling the trust of my parents everything, he helps me through it all, but i dont think that for that i have to give up the clubbingness, i havent read the bible in its enterty or know the context by memroy BUT i dont think it says give up everything and anything and all that makes u happy up for me, b/c then there would b no youth group either, cuz i have fun theres cute ppl there alot to do its a holy gohst "party" yes PARTY !! the word is in there if ur 18 its not wrong to go to a club and smoke cigarettes, if ur 21 its not wrong to drink and thats what there is at club, okay some ppl dont obay it, MOST ppl have a fake id but i dont do it, i just like going somewhere with loud music and dacing cuz, well .... its my life , all i ever do is dance i love it do it ! i LIVE to dance , its MY PASSION !.... thats that i love to do with mysleft but its okay if u dont believe it. i just think im lucky enough to balance all the good and bad to the point where i can rezist tempations, he gave up that life b/c he couldnt do it all love god and be good and faithfull but i can so i will, im doing it all right ! except stupid miami dade GgRr !oh well ill c u in youth group tonight if ur going, im catholic not christian and i have alot of fun i reccomend it if ur not afraid to stand up in the middle of the ghettoest club and say hey! I LOVE GOD AND I GO TO YOUTH GROUP AND I CAN HAVE AS MUCH FUN AS U W/O DRINKING AND DRUGS ! then come, every1 that says hey ppl in clubs are bad etc ur judging them, and god doesnt judge ppl , hum does that make me stronger than u in mii faith ?.... well if it doenst mean that im living mii life the way got wants me to ! .... TO THE ABSOLUTE FULLEST doing it all .... i want to b old in my death bed and say i did everything i wanted to, to (god forbid) be faced with a life threating desease and say u know what im ready, i did everything i wanted to. i want to b able to not be afraid to die, to not b afraid of anything. i want it all..... honestlly i still want ur love and even more the love of someone who is afraid to be with me b/c he doenst want to not be able to give me all his love, i want it and i want it someday .... i can wait .