Grr
I had such a good weekend. Super fun times. Dannys friend Eddy came and just hanging out with Danny, Eddy, Beau and Krista was fun. Friday night the girls went and saw Hitch in our PJ's that was fun. And then Saturday was the meet, woop woop for the two mile. 3rd to last baby, I know whats up! Last night we had fun just doing nothing, ate at The Bear and had some Jon n Bons, and played ten fingers a lot.
Anywho, boys suck, they really do. I don't why I can't ever get over people. And right when I start to, I hang out with them or something, and it puts me right back where I started from. And the guy hardly ever cares. I'm the one who dumped him, shouldn't he be feeling any pain? Well I guess I've come to realize that he doesn't and he won't ever. I'll be left crying over him for who knows how long, and he'll just be chill, because thats him. And its always the same conversation we have that makes me cry.
To go to church or not to go to church? For him its a no brainer, not go to church because its boring. Alright, so girl comes into his life and asks him to go, and does he make the sacrifice? No. I don't know why I ever thought I'd have an influence on his feelings about anything, but I tried. I guess its up to God now. Its up to God to help me get over him, its up to God to comfort me when he hurts me, and its up to God to fill the space that he left. I just wish that the human side of me would stop stepping in and letting him hurt me.
I guess I thought there was a future with him. Like someday somehow something would change, and we'd be able to be.
He said hes been studying all day and he doesn't have time for church. I happen to know that he went to get coffee with someone today, and that kinda hurts too.
Well I'm off to dinner and then to church. Gonna go hang out with God and it'll make me feel better. It always does.
Kinda forgot that he reads this thing, but whatever, I'm not going to care anymore.
And I'm still happy guys really, its just stuff like this that makes me cry. But really, all weekend I couldn't stop smiling. I am still incredibly happy, Chicos great, track is great, the girls are great, and I won't let just one thing get me down.
Ondi
Much love and dancing...
Anywho, boys suck, they really do. I don't why I can't ever get over people. And right when I start to, I hang out with them or something, and it puts me right back where I started from. And the guy hardly ever cares. I'm the one who dumped him, shouldn't he be feeling any pain? Well I guess I've come to realize that he doesn't and he won't ever. I'll be left crying over him for who knows how long, and he'll just be chill, because thats him. And its always the same conversation we have that makes me cry.
To go to church or not to go to church? For him its a no brainer, not go to church because its boring. Alright, so girl comes into his life and asks him to go, and does he make the sacrifice? No. I don't know why I ever thought I'd have an influence on his feelings about anything, but I tried. I guess its up to God now. Its up to God to help me get over him, its up to God to comfort me when he hurts me, and its up to God to fill the space that he left. I just wish that the human side of me would stop stepping in and letting him hurt me.
I guess I thought there was a future with him. Like someday somehow something would change, and we'd be able to be.
He said hes been studying all day and he doesn't have time for church. I happen to know that he went to get coffee with someone today, and that kinda hurts too.
Well I'm off to dinner and then to church. Gonna go hang out with God and it'll make me feel better. It always does.
Kinda forgot that he reads this thing, but whatever, I'm not going to care anymore.
And I'm still happy guys really, its just stuff like this that makes me cry. But really, all weekend I couldn't stop smiling. I am still incredibly happy, Chicos great, track is great, the girls are great, and I won't let just one thing get me down.
Ondi
Much love and dancing...