Fic: Memories of the Past (Sg-1)
Title: Memories of the Past
Rating: PG-13 (for later chapters)
Genre: Romance/Drama
Pairing: Daniel/Vala, Sam/Jack, Carolyn/Cam (and hints at Tomin/Vala)
Summery: The Dreams continue and Tomin tells his story wihle Daniel and Vala try to figure out what they are doing.
EDIT: Corrected the markup. Should be able to read it now.
A/N: This chapter contains spoilers from an upcoming episode “The Shroud” as well as some spoilers for the episodes “200” and “Camelot” specifically, and they have already aired. I’m basically taking the idea where I want it. I’m not exactly pleased with where that particular story arc (“The Shroud”) is looking at going so I changed it on here to fit my needs. But if you want to be unspoiled, this chapter is going to be hard to read since it briefly goes over that particular event. Well, as much as I know of it. This was started before Memento Mori so I’m going to cut canon off at “Company of Thieves”. Also this is a shippy chapter. The true angst/drama/plot will come in chapter three (Hopefully). Thanks to SailerNeo for the beta.
Chapter 2
Qetesh was furious. Ra had decided to give her as a gift to a fellow Gou’ald who had proven himself loyal to the System Lord. Resheph was not worthy of her. He did not rule, he destroyed. However, she would show Ra. She would create a new empire. Resheph would be only too eager to help and then she would discard him.
“My Lord, we have brought the man you sent us for.” She turned from the window and saw Ra’s Jaffa bring in Geranth Delerin, a local scholar. She smiled to herself. Not only would the torture of the human make her happy it would make her host suffer as well. Geranth had been the host’s betrothed. Qetesh couldn’t see being in love with such a man, as he was boring. She’d rather have an exciting lover.
“Bring him before me.” He was pushed forward and he fell on his knees before her and refused to look her in the eye. She pushed his chin up and looked down at him. “Do you love your God?” He spat.
“You are not a God.” She tilted her head. Odd one. Not many but there were a few who didn’t believe they were gods.”
“You have committed blasphemy. For that you should be punished.” She shone her hand device into his head, slowing killing him, knowing all the time that her host’s soul was being broken as it watched itself kill the one it loved.
Sam watched Vala sleep on the couch and hoped that whatever these dreams were they would stop soon. In the last three years, Sam and Vala had grown closer. While they were still not as close as the original SG-1, Sam considered Vala to be one of her closest friends She was also one of her few female friends and sometimes it helped to have a women she could talk to who also understood the strange family SG-1 was. Plus Vala had an interesting sense of humor that rivaled Jack O’Neill and it was a welcome part.
Remembering about Jack also caused her to remember that she needed to go home and finish setting up for the party. However she didn’t want Vala alone right now. She knew all about having weeks of bad dreams and it was often better if there was someone you were close to nearby to help you through them. She opened her cell phone and dialed the number the base, imputing Daniel’s extension number in as soon as the automated voice responded. Daniel answered with his typical hello, which turned out to sound more like “Yellow”.
“Daniel…It’s me Sam.”
“Oh, hey.” Sam could hear him shuffling papers in the background. “How’s Vala doing?” She had to smile when that was his first question. He cared for her more then he liked to let on. Well, let Vala know anyway. Vala had let it slip (and immediately tried to cover it up) that she felt Daniel didn’t really care for her the way she would like him to. It was obvious to Sam at least that Daniel was on his way, if not already there, to being in love with Vala. But she understood Daniel’s reluctance to let that be known.
“She seems fine. Had problems sleeping.” Sam didn’t know how much Daniel knew about Vala’s dreams and didn’t want to tell him anything if Vala didn’t want him to know.
“Nightmares?”
“Yeah.” Well, that was really not saying anything. Everyone has nightmares and in their occupation, more often then dreams. She could hear Daniel say something but not what it was.
“Does she want me to come over?” She could tell he was hopeful that she did, that Vala wasn’t still mad.
“She’s asleep right now. I need to go and pick up some things for the party, but I don’t want to leave her alone right now. Think you can come over?”
“Sure. I’ll be there as soon as I can.” They said good bye and Sam replaced her phone into her bag. She knew Daniel would be there soon. She looked over at Vala and then around the apartment. It was hardly a home. Sam wondered if Vala felt at home here.
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“I met your mother when I found her lying still at the side of a road outside my town. I took her in and cared for her. She was sick and for a few days didn’t even know where she was. She kept calling for her friends. Maybe her family. She never told me and I didn’t feel like I should ask. I remember her calling for a Sam and a Cam although they may have been the same person and for a Teal’c. However, she called for someone named Daniel the most.”
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His relationship with Vala had been one of those slow moving ones. Not the noticeably slow ones with the kiss waiting till the second date type. The kind where you hardly notice that there is a relationship and until boom: your sunk in a relationship you didn’t want in the first place but find you really don’t mind it after all.
While she first was back on base, their relationship had turned into a friendship. There hadn’t been any need to make it romantic, and Vala had stopped her insistent rambling on how they should be sleeping together. It wasn’t till after Marty had shown up had anything changed. He didn’t know if she had noticed it, but in almost everyone’s ideas, Vala and him were stuck together. Except in hers. Well, at least most of them. He had regretted letting her borrow his Farscape DVD set (and hopefully Jack didn’t know of its existence…he never hear the end of it from either Jack or Sam). It had started him wondering why it was that everyone saw them together.
Unfortunately, just as they were finally switching over to the romantic side of things, the whole “Prior” incident happened. Their relationship had built back up slowly after that. It had taken him a few weeks to get her to talk him again after he returned. Something had happened while he had been…whatever he had been doing and even now, over two years later, he still had no idea. Only that she was slightly quieter and seemed to be more reluctant to push their relationship forward then she used to. He figured he knew part of the reason… he had basically betrayed her by becoming a Prior.
He knew he was in love with her. Possibly since the Beachhead incident. Although he hadn’t really comes to terms with the fact till recently. The truth was that unlike his previous serious relationships he had no clue what he was doing. With Sarah it had been pretty easy up until the end. With Sha’re he had been given her as a gift, so in a way the whole courtship part of the relationship was skipped. With Janet…well, that relationship was easier because it slid smoothly from friendship to romantic.
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“I nursed her back to health, and she was grateful. She never seemed to be the type to fake general emotions but perhaps I was wrong. I knew I loved her soon after she finally stopped hallucinating her friends. She would smile at me. That’s all it took and I knew I was in love with her. I remember days when she would talk about her past. She never really told me anything, but I did some glimmers. Like her father had been a tradesmen in the village where she grow up and that her mother had been a seamstress till her death when Vala was thirteen. She never spoke of her life after her father remarried. I never asked why, figuring she’d tell me when she was ready.”
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Vala knew Sam thought she was sleeping but she wasn’t. She didn’t want to. Not with those dreams becoming more and more often. And more and more recent. The death of Gareth had been one of her worse memories of her time with Qetesh but then again, she had blocked a lot of her memories out so who was to know what the next dream would hold.
She was grateful for Sam’s concern. It had been decades since she had a serious female friend and Sam had filled that and was almost sisterly towards her. She was pretty sure Daniel’s constant (well, maybe not constant) faith in her had helped towards that fact. Sam hadn’t liked her in the beginning but Vala knew that was simply because at the time Vala had managed to hurt a friend of hers twice. Once actual physically fighting with Daniel and then later with those darn bracelets.
She resisted the urge to flip over. Really. What was she doing, going over the past? Her dreams were doing that quite well thank you. Plus all it did was revive the memories of frustration when Daniel either completely ignored her or responded so impassively she just wanted to hit him over the head to get him to react to her.
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“About a month from when she arrived, your mother convinced me to marry her. She didn’t have to do much. I was in love with her and jumped at the chance to keep her with me always. We married as soon as possible and began to live a quiet life in town. I was ecstatic when a month later she told me she was pregnant. I felt that was the perfect addition to my happily life. A wonderful home, a loving wife and a child. Your mother loved me, even if she wasn’t in love with me. I have to believe she did.”
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Her relationship with Daniel was really the focal point of her relationship of anyone else. It seemed like ever since he had shot at her on the Prometheus, her life had changed. She went from being a free-lance con artist to a con-artist with a goal-find the good looking Tauri. Then she went from a con-artist with a goal to a woman on a mission to save a galaxy. Then a mother on a mission to save her daughter from destroying the galaxy.
When she had first arrived till about two years later for the most part she was simply labeled as “Daniel’s problem.” If she got into trouble or if someone had concerns about her, they went to Daniel. It had grated her, knowing that the only two people who really saw her were Daniel and Cameron, who seemed to have realized that Daniel would have little to no effect on what she did beyond where he stood in relation to the bracelets.
It seemed a little better when she got back from her trip to Ori-land but it was still “That’s Daniel’s problem.” Frankly it wasn’t till after she became part of SG-1 and had worked with the team for about a year that people started accepting her as her own person and not just something in connection with Daniel. She had Sam to thank for that for the most part. Sam had been very kind to her in the first months back and had seemed to ease some of the fears others still had with her.
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“As she got further along in her pregnancy your mother became more and more attached to a local bar-maid, who had another job better not referred to. Either way, I was just happy to see her make a friend. She had been lonely. I later found out she was searching for someone who believed as she did, that the Ori were not gods but rather beings of higher power who took advantage of human need. It wasn’t until the town leader tied her to the bench in the middle of the city that was reserved for criminals and blasphemers that I even gave credit that she could believe other then what I believed. I was confused. I left her to die there for two days. Two days of no water or food and being stared at.
I believed that she had betrayed her gods. Only after the second day did I feel guilty and started to think about the child. To this day I regret that. I should have thought of what that would have done to you, Adria.”
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She was just now feeling as if she had her place amongst the people of this world. That she had a home, an almost-boyfriend (if he would only admit it), and something of a life beyond where the next stop would be. She had friends who were girls and who liked to sit watching silly romantic movies with her while eating ridiculously expensive chocolate ice cream and discussing the men they loved but wanted to hit sometimes. She had guy friends who tried to intimidate her dates when she did see someone other the Daniel, although she was pretty sure it was mostly because they weren’t Daniel and less that they were interested in her. Even Landry was friendly towards her now, treating her like another daughter, like he did Sam. SG-1 was her family now and she loved that.
But it still all started because Daniel championed her. If he had given up or just stuck with his opinion of her then she wouldn’t have this. She would probably be stuck on base doing nothing but being Daniel’s almost assistant. She just didn’t know if he thought of her any differently then the rest of the team. Sure, they were in a more intimate relationship and all, but he had yet to comment on what he felt about it and Daniel was always the first to get his view out. She wondered if he knew that she loved him and she wondered if he loved her.
She sighed as sleepiness took over, hearing Sam muttering in the background on her phone. Maybe the party this afternoon would get her mind off the dreams and her past regrets. She could only hope.
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“I unchained her, and took her home, glaring at anyone who stood in my way. I once again nursed her back to health, but afterwards she was less perfect in my eyes. Everything she did I suspected. If nothing else, I was the first to abandon our marriage. While not physically leaving, I left in my mind long before she ever left in his arms. From that point on, I cared for her simply because I still believed the child to be mine and in the deeps of my heart, that perhaps I was wrong and she wasn’t the disbeliever I kept seeing her as. I could only hope.”
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A/N: I used the following websites if you wish to view my research:
1. http://www.pantheon.org/articles/q/qetesh.html (For information on Qetesh)
2. http://www.gateworld.net/ (For the spoilers I mentioned at the start and background on episodes.)
Rating: PG-13 (for later chapters)
Genre: Romance/Drama
Pairing: Daniel/Vala, Sam/Jack, Carolyn/Cam (and hints at Tomin/Vala)
Summery: The Dreams continue and Tomin tells his story wihle Daniel and Vala try to figure out what they are doing.
EDIT: Corrected the markup. Should be able to read it now.
A/N: This chapter contains spoilers from an upcoming episode “The Shroud” as well as some spoilers for the episodes “200” and “Camelot” specifically, and they have already aired. I’m basically taking the idea where I want it. I’m not exactly pleased with where that particular story arc (“The Shroud”) is looking at going so I changed it on here to fit my needs. But if you want to be unspoiled, this chapter is going to be hard to read since it briefly goes over that particular event. Well, as much as I know of it. This was started before Memento Mori so I’m going to cut canon off at “Company of Thieves”. Also this is a shippy chapter. The true angst/drama/plot will come in chapter three (Hopefully). Thanks to SailerNeo for the beta.
Chapter 2
Qetesh was furious. Ra had decided to give her as a gift to a fellow Gou’ald who had proven himself loyal to the System Lord. Resheph was not worthy of her. He did not rule, he destroyed. However, she would show Ra. She would create a new empire. Resheph would be only too eager to help and then she would discard him.
“My Lord, we have brought the man you sent us for.” She turned from the window and saw Ra’s Jaffa bring in Geranth Delerin, a local scholar. She smiled to herself. Not only would the torture of the human make her happy it would make her host suffer as well. Geranth had been the host’s betrothed. Qetesh couldn’t see being in love with such a man, as he was boring. She’d rather have an exciting lover.
“Bring him before me.” He was pushed forward and he fell on his knees before her and refused to look her in the eye. She pushed his chin up and looked down at him. “Do you love your God?” He spat.
“You are not a God.” She tilted her head. Odd one. Not many but there were a few who didn’t believe they were gods.”
“You have committed blasphemy. For that you should be punished.” She shone her hand device into his head, slowing killing him, knowing all the time that her host’s soul was being broken as it watched itself kill the one it loved.
Sam watched Vala sleep on the couch and hoped that whatever these dreams were they would stop soon. In the last three years, Sam and Vala had grown closer. While they were still not as close as the original SG-1, Sam considered Vala to be one of her closest friends She was also one of her few female friends and sometimes it helped to have a women she could talk to who also understood the strange family SG-1 was. Plus Vala had an interesting sense of humor that rivaled Jack O’Neill and it was a welcome part.
Remembering about Jack also caused her to remember that she needed to go home and finish setting up for the party. However she didn’t want Vala alone right now. She knew all about having weeks of bad dreams and it was often better if there was someone you were close to nearby to help you through them. She opened her cell phone and dialed the number the base, imputing Daniel’s extension number in as soon as the automated voice responded. Daniel answered with his typical hello, which turned out to sound more like “Yellow”.
“Daniel…It’s me Sam.”
“Oh, hey.” Sam could hear him shuffling papers in the background. “How’s Vala doing?” She had to smile when that was his first question. He cared for her more then he liked to let on. Well, let Vala know anyway. Vala had let it slip (and immediately tried to cover it up) that she felt Daniel didn’t really care for her the way she would like him to. It was obvious to Sam at least that Daniel was on his way, if not already there, to being in love with Vala. But she understood Daniel’s reluctance to let that be known.
“She seems fine. Had problems sleeping.” Sam didn’t know how much Daniel knew about Vala’s dreams and didn’t want to tell him anything if Vala didn’t want him to know.
“Nightmares?”
“Yeah.” Well, that was really not saying anything. Everyone has nightmares and in their occupation, more often then dreams. She could hear Daniel say something but not what it was.
“Does she want me to come over?” She could tell he was hopeful that she did, that Vala wasn’t still mad.
“She’s asleep right now. I need to go and pick up some things for the party, but I don’t want to leave her alone right now. Think you can come over?”
“Sure. I’ll be there as soon as I can.” They said good bye and Sam replaced her phone into her bag. She knew Daniel would be there soon. She looked over at Vala and then around the apartment. It was hardly a home. Sam wondered if Vala felt at home here.
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“I met your mother when I found her lying still at the side of a road outside my town. I took her in and cared for her. She was sick and for a few days didn’t even know where she was. She kept calling for her friends. Maybe her family. She never told me and I didn’t feel like I should ask. I remember her calling for a Sam and a Cam although they may have been the same person and for a Teal’c. However, she called for someone named Daniel the most.”
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His relationship with Vala had been one of those slow moving ones. Not the noticeably slow ones with the kiss waiting till the second date type. The kind where you hardly notice that there is a relationship and until boom: your sunk in a relationship you didn’t want in the first place but find you really don’t mind it after all.
While she first was back on base, their relationship had turned into a friendship. There hadn’t been any need to make it romantic, and Vala had stopped her insistent rambling on how they should be sleeping together. It wasn’t till after Marty had shown up had anything changed. He didn’t know if she had noticed it, but in almost everyone’s ideas, Vala and him were stuck together. Except in hers. Well, at least most of them. He had regretted letting her borrow his Farscape DVD set (and hopefully Jack didn’t know of its existence…he never hear the end of it from either Jack or Sam). It had started him wondering why it was that everyone saw them together.
Unfortunately, just as they were finally switching over to the romantic side of things, the whole “Prior” incident happened. Their relationship had built back up slowly after that. It had taken him a few weeks to get her to talk him again after he returned. Something had happened while he had been…whatever he had been doing and even now, over two years later, he still had no idea. Only that she was slightly quieter and seemed to be more reluctant to push their relationship forward then she used to. He figured he knew part of the reason… he had basically betrayed her by becoming a Prior.
He knew he was in love with her. Possibly since the Beachhead incident. Although he hadn’t really comes to terms with the fact till recently. The truth was that unlike his previous serious relationships he had no clue what he was doing. With Sarah it had been pretty easy up until the end. With Sha’re he had been given her as a gift, so in a way the whole courtship part of the relationship was skipped. With Janet…well, that relationship was easier because it slid smoothly from friendship to romantic.
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“I nursed her back to health, and she was grateful. She never seemed to be the type to fake general emotions but perhaps I was wrong. I knew I loved her soon after she finally stopped hallucinating her friends. She would smile at me. That’s all it took and I knew I was in love with her. I remember days when she would talk about her past. She never really told me anything, but I did some glimmers. Like her father had been a tradesmen in the village where she grow up and that her mother had been a seamstress till her death when Vala was thirteen. She never spoke of her life after her father remarried. I never asked why, figuring she’d tell me when she was ready.”
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Vala knew Sam thought she was sleeping but she wasn’t. She didn’t want to. Not with those dreams becoming more and more often. And more and more recent. The death of Gareth had been one of her worse memories of her time with Qetesh but then again, she had blocked a lot of her memories out so who was to know what the next dream would hold.
She was grateful for Sam’s concern. It had been decades since she had a serious female friend and Sam had filled that and was almost sisterly towards her. She was pretty sure Daniel’s constant (well, maybe not constant) faith in her had helped towards that fact. Sam hadn’t liked her in the beginning but Vala knew that was simply because at the time Vala had managed to hurt a friend of hers twice. Once actual physically fighting with Daniel and then later with those darn bracelets.
She resisted the urge to flip over. Really. What was she doing, going over the past? Her dreams were doing that quite well thank you. Plus all it did was revive the memories of frustration when Daniel either completely ignored her or responded so impassively she just wanted to hit him over the head to get him to react to her.
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“About a month from when she arrived, your mother convinced me to marry her. She didn’t have to do much. I was in love with her and jumped at the chance to keep her with me always. We married as soon as possible and began to live a quiet life in town. I was ecstatic when a month later she told me she was pregnant. I felt that was the perfect addition to my happily life. A wonderful home, a loving wife and a child. Your mother loved me, even if she wasn’t in love with me. I have to believe she did.”
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Her relationship with Daniel was really the focal point of her relationship of anyone else. It seemed like ever since he had shot at her on the Prometheus, her life had changed. She went from being a free-lance con artist to a con-artist with a goal-find the good looking Tauri. Then she went from a con-artist with a goal to a woman on a mission to save a galaxy. Then a mother on a mission to save her daughter from destroying the galaxy.
When she had first arrived till about two years later for the most part she was simply labeled as “Daniel’s problem.” If she got into trouble or if someone had concerns about her, they went to Daniel. It had grated her, knowing that the only two people who really saw her were Daniel and Cameron, who seemed to have realized that Daniel would have little to no effect on what she did beyond where he stood in relation to the bracelets.
It seemed a little better when she got back from her trip to Ori-land but it was still “That’s Daniel’s problem.” Frankly it wasn’t till after she became part of SG-1 and had worked with the team for about a year that people started accepting her as her own person and not just something in connection with Daniel. She had Sam to thank for that for the most part. Sam had been very kind to her in the first months back and had seemed to ease some of the fears others still had with her.
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“As she got further along in her pregnancy your mother became more and more attached to a local bar-maid, who had another job better not referred to. Either way, I was just happy to see her make a friend. She had been lonely. I later found out she was searching for someone who believed as she did, that the Ori were not gods but rather beings of higher power who took advantage of human need. It wasn’t until the town leader tied her to the bench in the middle of the city that was reserved for criminals and blasphemers that I even gave credit that she could believe other then what I believed. I was confused. I left her to die there for two days. Two days of no water or food and being stared at.
I believed that she had betrayed her gods. Only after the second day did I feel guilty and started to think about the child. To this day I regret that. I should have thought of what that would have done to you, Adria.”
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She was just now feeling as if she had her place amongst the people of this world. That she had a home, an almost-boyfriend (if he would only admit it), and something of a life beyond where the next stop would be. She had friends who were girls and who liked to sit watching silly romantic movies with her while eating ridiculously expensive chocolate ice cream and discussing the men they loved but wanted to hit sometimes. She had guy friends who tried to intimidate her dates when she did see someone other the Daniel, although she was pretty sure it was mostly because they weren’t Daniel and less that they were interested in her. Even Landry was friendly towards her now, treating her like another daughter, like he did Sam. SG-1 was her family now and she loved that.
But it still all started because Daniel championed her. If he had given up or just stuck with his opinion of her then she wouldn’t have this. She would probably be stuck on base doing nothing but being Daniel’s almost assistant. She just didn’t know if he thought of her any differently then the rest of the team. Sure, they were in a more intimate relationship and all, but he had yet to comment on what he felt about it and Daniel was always the first to get his view out. She wondered if he knew that she loved him and she wondered if he loved her.
She sighed as sleepiness took over, hearing Sam muttering in the background on her phone. Maybe the party this afternoon would get her mind off the dreams and her past regrets. She could only hope.
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“I unchained her, and took her home, glaring at anyone who stood in my way. I once again nursed her back to health, but afterwards she was less perfect in my eyes. Everything she did I suspected. If nothing else, I was the first to abandon our marriage. While not physically leaving, I left in my mind long before she ever left in his arms. From that point on, I cared for her simply because I still believed the child to be mine and in the deeps of my heart, that perhaps I was wrong and she wasn’t the disbeliever I kept seeing her as. I could only hope.”
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A/N: I used the following websites if you wish to view my research:
1. http://www.pantheon.org/articles/q/qetesh.html (For information on Qetesh)
2. http://www.gateworld.net/ (For the spoilers I mentioned at the start and background on episodes.)