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Ever have moments of profound self awareness? Try for one a day. Keeps you on your toes. At first they sort of knock you off your axis. Like from the A to the B, or even the C. It's these times I'm in awe of so many things, like Lady Slippers. It's strange how it ebbs and flows and I drift from complete understanding to total confusion and back again, and usually I'm in some transitional state along the continuum. Today as I was sitting on a gravel bar out in the field I wondered how strange it is that every living entity kills, and mutilates with their sites set on sex. Isn't that strange? Yet we never think about that, but all in all isn't that what life is a bout? Take advantage of other living entities... break them down, break carbon-carbon bonds for energy, use energy for anabolic processes, reproduce (sexually in many cases). What a violent vulgar world, right? I mean, look at insects. I was watching a swarm of midges in a sunfleck on the bank of the stream and they were in their typical swarm pattern.... "and this is sex" I thought to myself. Swarms are all about sex. In fact the entire adult life stage for most insects is about sex. And when sex isn't involved, usually the insect is preying or parasitizing or hyperparasitising something. I looked at my turkey sandwich... unrecognizable pieces of dinosaur descendent... weird!! My belt... a strip of cow. ...But this isn't violence or vulgarity... it's harmony. Everything in the world is dependent upon everything else at some scale. No piece could function in complete isolation. It's amazing that we are able to experience this extremely rare set of conditions where matter interacts in such complex ways that self awareness arises. I don't understand how people don't just walk around in awe of the world and universe and our particular situation the entire day...
Lance is yelling at me... better go see what's up...
Lance is yelling at me... better go see what's up...