This is my mission statement:
Part One:
I find it so exciting and amazing to think about my future and what it may bring, and most of all I love thinking about life deeply. What's even more exciting for me is that I have goals and plans for my future and it's an incredible feeling to reach them and know that deep inside I can accomplish anything. However, I sometimes feel like the biggest failure, but I mean I guess that's normal. Out of all the speakers that came to talk at MYL, not one of them said that they didn't feel a sense of failure. Sometimes I even feel that I am wasting away who I am, my gifts, my talents, dreams, and even more important the future that I have been dreaming of for as long as I can remember. I often feel as though I live too much in "my front yard" so to speak. I'm referring to the difference of character and personality. I think a lot of people see my personality rather than the generous, loving, responsible, and ambitious person that I truly am. But I think that the main problem here is that I don't try to be who I am. I try to be who everyone else looks up to. I see other people who I admire and eminate them, or at least try, and I often wonder if others do this. What I want most is to be genuine and have passion for the traits and characteristics I admire. An example of my questioning is my whole future goals. Do I really want to be a doctor? Or do I just see the admiration that physicians seem to receive from our society, and the professionalism that comes along with it? Is it the high pay? Do I just want to be recongnized for having a high quality/education job? All this thinking makes me ask an even more important question of myself; am I really cut out to be a doctor? The other day my I told my doctor that I wanted to go into medicine, specifically to be a phsycian, and he snapped right back with, "are you sure you want to work 80 hour weeks, and stay up for 36 hours at time?" I mean, almost instantly a huge grin spread across my face, and I snapped back a yes as soon as he popped the question. But deep inside...there was inner tormoil. I have so many doubts about what I can accomplish, and I want it to end. I'm not saying I want to become overly conceited or that type of thing, but I just want to work hard and know that I can do anything I put my mind to.
Part Two:
One of things that gets me through anything is my strong faith in God. I feel that everyone was put on this earth for a reason, and that everything happens for a reason. What I want more than anything is to find success in why I was put on earth. I have found, especially recently with my work in volunteering, that I have a gift in helping people. It seems that I am always putting others before me, which has had its pros and cons, but that's who I am. I love going to BBCH every Saturday, despite the DEVASTATING stories of patients, but the reason why I can handle all the emotional stuff, is because I know that I am making a difference in children's and their families lives. Whether it be showing them arts and crafts, or havng a smile on my face. It's truly amazing. I want to give back to the world somehow and some way, and I think success is not defined in what you get out of life, but what you put back. (of course quoted by Jason Long)
I find it so exciting and amazing to think about my future and what it may bring, and most of all I love thinking about life deeply. What's even more exciting for me is that I have goals and plans for my future and it's an incredible feeling to reach them and know that deep inside I can accomplish anything. However, I sometimes feel like the biggest failure, but I mean I guess that's normal. Out of all the speakers that came to talk at MYL, not one of them said that they didn't feel a sense of failure. Sometimes I even feel that I am wasting away who I am, my gifts, my talents, dreams, and even more important the future that I have been dreaming of for as long as I can remember. I often feel as though I live too much in "my front yard" so to speak. I'm referring to the difference of character and personality. I think a lot of people see my personality rather than the generous, loving, responsible, and ambitious person that I truly am. But I think that the main problem here is that I don't try to be who I am. I try to be who everyone else looks up to. I see other people who I admire and eminate them, or at least try, and I often wonder if others do this. What I want most is to be genuine and have passion for the traits and characteristics I admire. An example of my questioning is my whole future goals. Do I really want to be a doctor? Or do I just see the admiration that physicians seem to receive from our society, and the professionalism that comes along with it? Is it the high pay? Do I just want to be recongnized for having a high quality/education job? All this thinking makes me ask an even more important question of myself; am I really cut out to be a doctor? The other day my I told my doctor that I wanted to go into medicine, specifically to be a phsycian, and he snapped right back with, "are you sure you want to work 80 hour weeks, and stay up for 36 hours at time?" I mean, almost instantly a huge grin spread across my face, and I snapped back a yes as soon as he popped the question. But deep inside...there was inner tormoil. I have so many doubts about what I can accomplish, and I want it to end. I'm not saying I want to become overly conceited or that type of thing, but I just want to work hard and know that I can do anything I put my mind to.
Part Two:
One of things that gets me through anything is my strong faith in God. I feel that everyone was put on this earth for a reason, and that everything happens for a reason. What I want more than anything is to find success in why I was put on earth. I have found, especially recently with my work in volunteering, that I have a gift in helping people. It seems that I am always putting others before me, which has had its pros and cons, but that's who I am. I love going to BBCH every Saturday, despite the DEVASTATING stories of patients, but the reason why I can handle all the emotional stuff, is because I know that I am making a difference in children's and their families lives. Whether it be showing them arts and crafts, or havng a smile on my face. It's truly amazing. I want to give back to the world somehow and some way, and I think success is not defined in what you get out of life, but what you put back. (of course quoted by Jason Long)