Confessions of the strong
My conversation with god
"Hello god, how are you? Yes I know that question is irrelevant but I always like it when people ask me what my day was like, so why shouldn’t I ask you.
God over the years I have tried never to ask something for my self. You know that I think it’s selfish no mater how needed it is, if any thing at lest ask for help for some one else first.
But to day I ask one thing for from you. I ask for help with one of the few fears I have. My first kiss. I fear horribly that I will look back on my first kiss and first love and regret it like so may people that I know. I fear that I will end up hating the person that I have my first kiss with. I ask help with that.
I know some one that I know in every fiber of my being that I will never hate. I also want to see if their is any thing more between us than just a close friend ship. And I have asked her. But she is nerves, and scared. And I fear that if I push it I will just scare her more. And I don't want to heart her, above every thing else I don't want to her. But I also don't want to lose this chance. And I think that just scares me more. Knowing that I have done every thing I can, yet I can not seem to calm her. I also know that I have a bad habit of manipulating people into actions that they don't wish to do. So I am trying to my hardest not to do that to her. I want, need to know that this was willing by her, or I would just hate my self more.
So god help me. Help calm her fears. Help me to know that I will not regret my firsts. Help me to know if their is something between us. Help her to know if their is something between us.
Lord just help me.
sojuern
"Hello god, how are you? Yes I know that question is irrelevant but I always like it when people ask me what my day was like, so why shouldn’t I ask you.
God over the years I have tried never to ask something for my self. You know that I think it’s selfish no mater how needed it is, if any thing at lest ask for help for some one else first.
But to day I ask one thing for from you. I ask for help with one of the few fears I have. My first kiss. I fear horribly that I will look back on my first kiss and first love and regret it like so may people that I know. I fear that I will end up hating the person that I have my first kiss with. I ask help with that.
I know some one that I know in every fiber of my being that I will never hate. I also want to see if their is any thing more between us than just a close friend ship. And I have asked her. But she is nerves, and scared. And I fear that if I push it I will just scare her more. And I don't want to heart her, above every thing else I don't want to her. But I also don't want to lose this chance. And I think that just scares me more. Knowing that I have done every thing I can, yet I can not seem to calm her. I also know that I have a bad habit of manipulating people into actions that they don't wish to do. So I am trying to my hardest not to do that to her. I want, need to know that this was willing by her, or I would just hate my self more.
So god help me. Help calm her fears. Help me to know that I will not regret my firsts. Help me to know if their is something between us. Help her to know if their is something between us.
Lord just help me.
sojuern