a midsummer day
yet another day in a life of a mind, an entity in itself that, though stationary, reaches far into the depths of experience ... it is like rummaging through things ... things lost, things found, phantom things, real things ... snippets of souvenirs ... summer cleaning .. a mid-summer day's musing ...
the corporeal casing of such a mind sits idly before a computer, detached yet attuned to the music .. what is it about music that brings us to certain places and reminds us of a particular story we are creating even as we are living life in a specific moment?
a suspension of sand in an hour-glass .. like a pendulum, remembrance sways back and forth from a fixed support that is melody and gravity, the weight of my heart ...
i see you everywhere today -- in memory of places i had been with you; in the restlessness of the aborted promise of our future; in dreams where i can almost touch, see and feel you ... we were once fighting revolutionaries, unique in our pursuit of each other. there was a time when we thought we had won and fooled them all ... we lost ...
the summers of my life: in 1998 i was in an apartment in astoria, queens wishing to be found ... in 1999, i was in changmai, thailand riding a motorbike with 'run', closely cruising the midnight streets ... in 2000, i was in new york getting ready to start grad school, frequenting places such as keats and alonzo's with fern, anna and antoine ... in 2001 i was back in thailand and thought i had found something ... in 2002 i was in beijing, awe-struck by the great wall ... last year, i was back in thailand then back to the philippines after having spent the first half of 2003 there ...
you knotted a cherry in my mouth, but we couldn't quite get it right ... we lost then and we didn't know it ...
but now, i know ...
the corporeal casing of such a mind sits idly before a computer, detached yet attuned to the music .. what is it about music that brings us to certain places and reminds us of a particular story we are creating even as we are living life in a specific moment?
a suspension of sand in an hour-glass .. like a pendulum, remembrance sways back and forth from a fixed support that is melody and gravity, the weight of my heart ...
i see you everywhere today -- in memory of places i had been with you; in the restlessness of the aborted promise of our future; in dreams where i can almost touch, see and feel you ... we were once fighting revolutionaries, unique in our pursuit of each other. there was a time when we thought we had won and fooled them all ... we lost ...
the summers of my life: in 1998 i was in an apartment in astoria, queens wishing to be found ... in 1999, i was in changmai, thailand riding a motorbike with 'run', closely cruising the midnight streets ... in 2000, i was in new york getting ready to start grad school, frequenting places such as keats and alonzo's with fern, anna and antoine ... in 2001 i was back in thailand and thought i had found something ... in 2002 i was in beijing, awe-struck by the great wall ... last year, i was back in thailand then back to the philippines after having spent the first half of 2003 there ...
you knotted a cherry in my mouth, but we couldn't quite get it right ... we lost then and we didn't know it ...
but now, i know ...