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I've been thinking about Lynette a lot lately. If she were still here, she would be in this room right now, we'd be breathing the same air, I'd be getting work done, she'd be making me laugh uncontrollably, and hell even though it's only 1 in the afternoon, we may even be having a drink. I just wish I knew her reasoning behind it. Is there something I could have done to change her mind?
What was it? That question drives me crazy. No one will ever know. Everything seemed to be going just fine. She had a good job, she was on her way to med school to be a trauma surgeon, she had a nice apartment that was always filled with close friends, laughing, having a good time. There were no drugs involved, no relationship problems, she had a fantastic self-esteem, she was georgous, a model, made straight A's, was always the life of the party, so what was it?
Maybe those things just weren't enough. Maybe she held back things that were really bothering her. Maybe her life and her personality were a facade hiding someone else. Maybe we are just never sopposed to know. I've just never liked mysteries.