4/30/07

May 04, 2007 15:15

Man, am I ever stupid
I went fishing for disappointment
for somebody completely unrefined
Damned if it wasn't you
that I caught and reeled in on the line
Damned if I didn't see you coming
from a million miles away
But I kept bringing you on in,
despite all of the warnings in the way
Damned if I don't have to learn everything
the hardest possible way
And if ever I was feeling alone,
if ever I felt afraid
Who was I supposed to turn to,
Where could I ever possibly run to
That could take me far enough away from you?
I don't think there is a place that exists
that would feel quite right without you
But I cannot figure out
what I'm supposed to do about you
Tonight you love me
Tomorrow you won't
It drives me to a point
just short of insanity
And I am actually attracted to
your endless supply of vanity
I make myself sick with the way
that you've got me utterly enamored
And I can't believe it when I hear myself saying
that's sure, it's fine, it's quite alright
if you want to spend the night
And no, I really don't mind
if it's just one kiss
And I won't complain
when you put your hand on my thigh
And if you wnat to make love to me
I guess that's cool if it's just this once
God, I am so ashamed
of the mess that you have made of me
But I promise that I won't scream when you leave
I won't fall down on my knees
Because, for what it's worth,
I was prepared for all of this
Way before the first time we kissed
I was already ready for this
I've given up on trying to
deflect your unwavering stare
Abandoned thoughts of
resisting your eyes
So, come on, I'm ready to be your pawn
I am sitting here waiting to get trampled on.

love,
Leah
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