holy fucking shit
i was motoring to town tonight because i was bored and needed food and i started talkign to myself again like i usually do. i mean it was the usual sort of conversation but then i was liek fuck this shit i need a friend so i made a friend up and put her in the copilot seat and started talking to her. we had a good conversation and it wasnt one sided. i mean i actually made a talkative imaginary friend. usually they just sit and listen to me because no one else does but this one talked back. then i looked into the backseat liek damn this backseat could get a few more friends but i saw the reflection of my jacket and a pair of shoes in the window and whipped aroudn real fast. i turned to my friend and was liek holy shit we really did kill her. were fuckign the man. and i was so god damn proud of myself for having a friend and a dead body i almost didnt even need the ice cream that i went to town to get.
thinkgin about this further i probably didnt need the ice cream i just wanted to make a friend to talk to because the friend i made this morning i left on the side of the road when he told me he was rich. pretty fucked up like i should have stolen his money so then i wouldnt have over drawn my bank accoutn buying icecream. all in all though i believe this night was a success. it had all the elements of a good movie to it. suspense, action, drama. and best of all i just had to be like ok i got my computer you can leave now and then i was alone with the computer and my friend went away. ill probably call her back tomorrow and be liek im lonely again wanna be my friend and she will be like yeah ill be your friend cause you look lonely. and ill get embaressed liek i have lots of friends and she will be like fuckign liar but say it smiling so i dont feel bad for having no friends. then we will motor out and ride summer then go to work and come home and then ill be like you can go home now cause im just gonna sit here and look at pictures of dead people for a few hours and talk to myself on messenger. i think that the one person messenger convesations are the best because they are the funniest like i can say things to myself that everyone woudl call me a bad person for saying but then when it comes up on the computer screen i can laugh and be like i fucking agree one hundred and one percent this person is what ive been looking for. i mean not that i like myself because i fucking despise who i am. id just rather talk about hating people with someone that understands and will always talk to me and doesnt do other things because they are like im fucking better than you because i say the right htings. but the right things are always boring and if everythiung is boring than you stop thinking and your dumb forever. whereas if you keep up a good conversation your always moving foreward and discovering new things. kind of like switching to a faster internet connection. your going faster adn faster, learnign new thigns all the time. but then if your internet connection is slow as molasses on a cold day you can just talk to yourself and thats still moving foreward because you can ask yourself questions that you dont know the answer to and the other part of you will answer them so your always learning. faster internet connnections and new friends will keep you on the right track so your always like yeah i can spell that word but then when you take out a few letters and scrunch shit around the word will be someting else and then you can get a new friend and go to town to get chocolate.
thinkgin about this further i probably didnt need the ice cream i just wanted to make a friend to talk to because the friend i made this morning i left on the side of the road when he told me he was rich. pretty fucked up like i should have stolen his money so then i wouldnt have over drawn my bank accoutn buying icecream. all in all though i believe this night was a success. it had all the elements of a good movie to it. suspense, action, drama. and best of all i just had to be like ok i got my computer you can leave now and then i was alone with the computer and my friend went away. ill probably call her back tomorrow and be liek im lonely again wanna be my friend and she will be like yeah ill be your friend cause you look lonely. and ill get embaressed liek i have lots of friends and she will be like fuckign liar but say it smiling so i dont feel bad for having no friends. then we will motor out and ride summer then go to work and come home and then ill be like you can go home now cause im just gonna sit here and look at pictures of dead people for a few hours and talk to myself on messenger. i think that the one person messenger convesations are the best because they are the funniest like i can say things to myself that everyone woudl call me a bad person for saying but then when it comes up on the computer screen i can laugh and be like i fucking agree one hundred and one percent this person is what ive been looking for. i mean not that i like myself because i fucking despise who i am. id just rather talk about hating people with someone that understands and will always talk to me and doesnt do other things because they are like im fucking better than you because i say the right htings. but the right things are always boring and if everythiung is boring than you stop thinking and your dumb forever. whereas if you keep up a good conversation your always moving foreward and discovering new things. kind of like switching to a faster internet connection. your going faster adn faster, learnign new thigns all the time. but then if your internet connection is slow as molasses on a cold day you can just talk to yourself and thats still moving foreward because you can ask yourself questions that you dont know the answer to and the other part of you will answer them so your always learning. faster internet connnections and new friends will keep you on the right track so your always like yeah i can spell that word but then when you take out a few letters and scrunch shit around the word will be someting else and then you can get a new friend and go to town to get chocolate.