realizing
Well lets see today i went to the mall...got 2 new shirts yeah sounds like fun...Then came home took a shower ate dinner talked on the fone with Shannonn and then wathced the Boy Meets World marathon...there wedding made me cry...lol because it reminds me of so much like me n Joe...yeah but then i called ash and yeah it was kewl we talked about old times..and started realizing stuff...like about Joe And Matt...like if u think about and u think that, that one guy u think ur true love is does he stand out from all the rest of the guys? Has he always been there for you never cheated on you? Always new what u were going threw? Think about it because maybe that you never gave that one guy a chance like you should have...and he could turn out to be ur true love...But it only happens when either u really need them in ur life to give u strength courage or confidence is when they come in... And they will forever stay in your heart. You know now that i think about it you can never "assume" things sometimes u have to take a risk your willing to take..Even if the truth may come out or not...And if u truly love someone with all your heart you have to fight for them and NEVER GIVE UP...<----lol matt...Because just maybe deep down they still have all the feelings in the world for you and can never express them bc some1 is making sure you 2 dont fall in love and never will...But one day that person will realize that you love eachother so much that it doesnt matter becuase they want to see you 2 happy...((if only that would come true)) And the reason why sometimes people break up is because people get jealous.Thats why soime realtionships dont work out. But when people see that like you 2 are meant for eachother noone will mess with your realtionship...Because they want to see you happy even tho they might be jealous as hell its ok...Because one of your best friends is happy. And i mean if it comes down to it...if Joe goes out with some1 else then I will try to be happy for him and her. Its gunna take a lot of time to get over it but yeah...Somethings you just cant give up in life espcially guys and who knows maybe me n joe arent even right for eachother... But i think the whole 9th grade knows that we are...Because only the people who are happy for us and want us to get back toether realize how much of a past we have. "If you dont have a past you wont have a future"-Some movie..lol But you know a guy and a girl never be "just friends" theres always something that happens...They eiher fall in love or get sexual. Its obvious that has happend in todays society. But sometimes you either have to take a risk or just don't and wonder what could have happened or wut should have happened...And in true love you dont want to do that because then you will never know...Wow it feels good to get all that off my chest. Lol now the hard part is just telling him how i feel : /
Xo-Katie-Ox