so there's this boy;;

[soimpossible23]

he's just what i need right now.
hes sarcastic, funny, and loves the fact that i confuse the hell out of him
and don't fit any of the stereotypes he compares everything to.
i get to see him this weekend, but iv been thinking a lot lately about the fact
that his ex broke his heart, and i know he's still hung up on it..
this weekend is valentines day & the anniversary of him and his ex, it's really
awkward for me..i can't and don't expect him to be completely over her; she
was his first love and they dated for 3 years, i just don't want that to hold him back.
i know he won't give up on us that easily; fate has had a way with us.

tomorrow is ama's funeral. i didn't know her that well, or at all for that matter..
my mom is real torn up about it and i understand how important that relationship
was to her. i suck at funerals. hopefully ill make it out alive without any stupid
jokes and unnecessary comments..maybe i just wont talk.whatever i do i can't laugh.
im so bad at this...im good for having the wrong emotions at the wrong times.