Here. Now.
Had a marvelous Birthday and time this past week carving out a new way of things. Feeling content and creative. Started my 365 photo journal and excited to see how that unfolds. Missing some old friends and trying to decide how to make a trip out East before Winter gets a grip up there.
I've also decided its time to let some folks in on another personal matter. Been holding my cards close because that's how I roll. Enough of all that. It is ridiculously clear who is gonna stick around, who always has. Its at the root of a lot of this change. When you are confronted with certain things you are forced to take an accounting. Looking first within and then to everything and everyone around you. I was tired of being sad and tired. Time cyclical and infinite as she is only lets me walk here and now with this body. I was once an implosive girl. Furious in my self destruction and sucking everything around me into that deception and rage. I was afraid. I want this to end differently. I want to phoenix. I've done it before but it was purely a super nova of necessity. I made unspoken deals with some. Showed them my worth was only as good as I could serve them. I've officially evolved into a deal breaker. Good on me.
Here is the link to the photo journal if you choose to indulge in my self-indulgence.
Yes it's MySpace-get over it.
http://www.myspace.com/projektschicksal
I've also decided its time to let some folks in on another personal matter. Been holding my cards close because that's how I roll. Enough of all that. It is ridiculously clear who is gonna stick around, who always has. Its at the root of a lot of this change. When you are confronted with certain things you are forced to take an accounting. Looking first within and then to everything and everyone around you. I was tired of being sad and tired. Time cyclical and infinite as she is only lets me walk here and now with this body. I was once an implosive girl. Furious in my self destruction and sucking everything around me into that deception and rage. I was afraid. I want this to end differently. I want to phoenix. I've done it before but it was purely a super nova of necessity. I made unspoken deals with some. Showed them my worth was only as good as I could serve them. I've officially evolved into a deal breaker. Good on me.
Here is the link to the photo journal if you choose to indulge in my self-indulgence.
Yes it's MySpace-get over it.
http://www.myspace.com/projektschicksal