out of control rambling on work
i am wasting time instead of finishing a really good book, showering , and sleeping. we are insanely busy busy at work and there is no time. and routine has been thrown out the window and it makes me ridiculously irrtated and there is shit where there shouldn't be and messes in the morning and shitty shit attitudes resulting out of stress and frustration.. we were up 41,ooo last month in food and beverage. this makes me happy. cause we all work really hard. and we deserve a little gratification. this means we are all really really tired and sucked dry of energy.
. we kind of sort a got the ktichen back to cleaner after a solid week of as kicking, but the ass kicking has not stopped. and i see the dirtiness slipping back because of all the rushing. alas, this time i will not run out of food like the fucking idiot i am and did.
i made a 9 year plan in my head this morning and swore i would write it down. but of course i did not. by mid day it was looking bleak. the plan. and i begun talking myself out of it. but the end of my 15 hours shift i had shut off my brain. but i did decide that 9 years of managing the same kitchen....i do hope not. and i can not see myself being out front. i'm awfully blunt and insensitive when it comes to whining and drama.
i was thinking of high school basketball and comparing it to work. the reason i hated it so much was the rules. you had to be ethical. like you couldn't be aggressive when playing defense and push or shove. and at work you can't tell some idiot whiny ass boy to shut the fuck up or worse, up and fire him because he doesn't clean well or work fast enough. but in street ball you can do whatever you want. you can trip someone and even though it is not the right thing to do and an argument mught ensue. and in small business you can scream profanities at the kitchen and throw frying pans at their head when they suck. and fire them on the spot for whatever 'reasonable' reason you can come up with. their should be room for unethical in a corporate kitchen. when i had a shit day/ shift at work because i 'didn't feel' like working that day, i had someone up my ass and in my face criticizing me from all angles. it made me a better cook. it made me a better person. but not everyone's personality is alike. and some people can be sensitive. at work(this i don't understand)! and when i have conflict with a sensitive person i feel like a shit person.
. we kind of sort a got the ktichen back to cleaner after a solid week of as kicking, but the ass kicking has not stopped. and i see the dirtiness slipping back because of all the rushing. alas, this time i will not run out of food like the fucking idiot i am and did.
i made a 9 year plan in my head this morning and swore i would write it down. but of course i did not. by mid day it was looking bleak. the plan. and i begun talking myself out of it. but the end of my 15 hours shift i had shut off my brain. but i did decide that 9 years of managing the same kitchen....i do hope not. and i can not see myself being out front. i'm awfully blunt and insensitive when it comes to whining and drama.
i was thinking of high school basketball and comparing it to work. the reason i hated it so much was the rules. you had to be ethical. like you couldn't be aggressive when playing defense and push or shove. and at work you can't tell some idiot whiny ass boy to shut the fuck up or worse, up and fire him because he doesn't clean well or work fast enough. but in street ball you can do whatever you want. you can trip someone and even though it is not the right thing to do and an argument mught ensue. and in small business you can scream profanities at the kitchen and throw frying pans at their head when they suck. and fire them on the spot for whatever 'reasonable' reason you can come up with. their should be room for unethical in a corporate kitchen. when i had a shit day/ shift at work because i 'didn't feel' like working that day, i had someone up my ass and in my face criticizing me from all angles. it made me a better cook. it made me a better person. but not everyone's personality is alike. and some people can be sensitive. at work(this i don't understand)! and when i have conflict with a sensitive person i feel like a shit person.