actual update
hey all. so excited. first DKM concert today. YES! and can i just say that i am psyched for it?
Currently i am listening to Joan Jett's "Do You Wanna Touch Me (yeah)". gooood song. everyone needs to jam to her and The Blackhearts at least once a week.
so i haven't updated in a long time aside from needed outbursts of extreme anger- this journal is like therepy- i like how its just here for me to silently scream while i droun in anger. Its much more healthy than beating the shit our of somehting. I'd channel it to something constructive if it weren't for the lazyness that sets in. My energy peaks at around midnight/1am so i'm always sp sluggish during the day but i'm so ready to go do stuff at night. anyway i'm so offtopic. its update time.
actualy b4 i do i need to type out these lyrcs so maybe they'll get out of my head... excuise me....
Do you wanna touch (Yeah)
Do you wanna touch (Yeah)
Do you wanna touch me there, where
Do you wanna touch (Yeah)
Do you wanna touch (Yeah)
Do you wanna touch me there, where
There, yeah
ok thats out of my head now....
went to the beach monday. as everyone knows i have a serious shark phobia. can't stand sharks- theyr're very cool and very terrifying and i can't even be calm in a pool is i start thinking abot them. It was Jaws at too early an age. i'm not a freak though! my buddy scotts got my back with the same fear! hell yea. anyway. lindsay and kara and christy convinced me to go in the water. I was very terrified of being in even knee deep. I've read every book i could find on sharks when i was little. i know about the ones that can lurke in water thats only knee deep and pull you out to deeper water. they're nt just little things. they're huge- 5- 6 feet long even and they're lethal! over the time they coaxed me out to the water that was about up to my chest. honestly they were going further and further out and i was inching after them because i was so scared to be even 5 feet away from somebody else. the ocean is really fun- but i was just scared. I was having a good time but they idea that my fears could become reality was always there. lol at one point everyone was swimming around having a good time when i saw the sand str up ahead of me- i'd say about 2 feet infront. I knew it wasn't really anything- or rather i was telling myself i knew. but i began to search around me wildly. i don't know what my face was doing or what i must have looked like but lindsay called to me casually and slightly amused- "Gina! You look paniced!" thanks lindsay- its becasue i was panicing but you made me laugh it off.
later christy and lindsay were attemping to teach me to float on my back. lol that was a disaster. I wouldn't relax enoguh so they decide they're gonna do what cam councelors do- holding you up in th ewater. except i felt like i was gonna flip backwards and i started screaming and laughing and panicing and thrashing. it was all in good fun with a case of OMG they're going to kill me. Sorry i stepped on you under water christy!
well i'm gonna go now. beach again wednesday! later guys.
Currently i am listening to Joan Jett's "Do You Wanna Touch Me (yeah)". gooood song. everyone needs to jam to her and The Blackhearts at least once a week.
so i haven't updated in a long time aside from needed outbursts of extreme anger- this journal is like therepy- i like how its just here for me to silently scream while i droun in anger. Its much more healthy than beating the shit our of somehting. I'd channel it to something constructive if it weren't for the lazyness that sets in. My energy peaks at around midnight/1am so i'm always sp sluggish during the day but i'm so ready to go do stuff at night. anyway i'm so offtopic. its update time.
actualy b4 i do i need to type out these lyrcs so maybe they'll get out of my head... excuise me....
Do you wanna touch (Yeah)
Do you wanna touch (Yeah)
Do you wanna touch me there, where
Do you wanna touch (Yeah)
Do you wanna touch (Yeah)
Do you wanna touch me there, where
There, yeah
ok thats out of my head now....
went to the beach monday. as everyone knows i have a serious shark phobia. can't stand sharks- theyr're very cool and very terrifying and i can't even be calm in a pool is i start thinking abot them. It was Jaws at too early an age. i'm not a freak though! my buddy scotts got my back with the same fear! hell yea. anyway. lindsay and kara and christy convinced me to go in the water. I was very terrified of being in even knee deep. I've read every book i could find on sharks when i was little. i know about the ones that can lurke in water thats only knee deep and pull you out to deeper water. they're nt just little things. they're huge- 5- 6 feet long even and they're lethal! over the time they coaxed me out to the water that was about up to my chest. honestly they were going further and further out and i was inching after them because i was so scared to be even 5 feet away from somebody else. the ocean is really fun- but i was just scared. I was having a good time but they idea that my fears could become reality was always there. lol at one point everyone was swimming around having a good time when i saw the sand str up ahead of me- i'd say about 2 feet infront. I knew it wasn't really anything- or rather i was telling myself i knew. but i began to search around me wildly. i don't know what my face was doing or what i must have looked like but lindsay called to me casually and slightly amused- "Gina! You look paniced!" thanks lindsay- its becasue i was panicing but you made me laugh it off.
later christy and lindsay were attemping to teach me to float on my back. lol that was a disaster. I wouldn't relax enoguh so they decide they're gonna do what cam councelors do- holding you up in th ewater. except i felt like i was gonna flip backwards and i started screaming and laughing and panicing and thrashing. it was all in good fun with a case of OMG they're going to kill me. Sorry i stepped on you under water christy!
well i'm gonna go now. beach again wednesday! later guys.