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I'm not really sure how long this update will last until i start freaking out, so. I'll try anyhow.
I've had my car for ONE month, and 7 days? something like that. Anyhow, I've put over 1000 miles on it, already. How many gallons of gas is that x 2.15? Please, don't even tell me. I was already wondering where my money went.
Have you ever been crying, and someone tells you something good, and you know its good, but all it does is make you cry more? I don't understand that.... at all.
But I have to say that i really really love hugs. Not stupid ones from people who don't even want to be around you or vice versa, but, real, sincere hugs are the most wonderful thing ever.
I hate feeling like the second choice. always. (staciaffer, you know what line goes here-hehe).
I hate that i hurt myself when i'm mad. And youd like to think, "oh, ill wake up and forget about this" but its stupid when it doesnt work that way, and you wake up in a bad mood anyhow. It also is really stupid when you have a really mean dream about people you love and the next time you see them you feel like youre mad at them, but, youre not really.
I love it when you want a hug the first thing when i see you. i love it when you write a song for me. i love it when you say something you saw reminded you of me. i love it when i make your day by saying just the right thing. i love it when i remember stupid days for you. i love it when you cant wait til you see me next. i love it when we do stupid things without consulting each other first but it works out wonderfully. i love that you comment in all of my journal entries, and then on my comments. i love your cheap blue shoes. i love that you remember the kind of gum i gave you in kindergarten. i love that we've never stopped being friends. i love that you understand me when i dont say anything. i love that youve dedicated an entire away message to me saying funny things. i love that youve brought out the abusive side of me (hehe). i love that you told me that i was very pretty the other day. i love that youre happy to see me home. i love that you still held my sticky hands. i love that youve taught me to be more open around other people. i love that we'll stay friends after school is done. i love it.
" But i never said that made it all better"