Peace
I prayed for peace, health, and understanding today. Those three encompass a lot of my inner turmoil. The things I cry and stress about. I need peace of mind. I need better habits. I need to come to terms with all these transitions.
Today, I start my detox. My recommitment. I'm fasting and praying. I always felt like I couldn't do that and was amazed at my father's discipline. Whenever concert season rolled around, he fasted and prayed for the days or week before it. I would ask how he was okay and he would tell me that God provided the nourishment through prayer. I finally get it.
Whenever I thought I was hungry, I prayed. Not to take away the hunger, but for peace, health, and understanding. And the hunger went away. I am praying without ceasing. I am drinking water...and a cold-pressed juice (ginger, beet, and apple). It is my desire to fast and pray until Wednesday. That's the day I head to my new state for an incoming law students event. I'll also tour apartments. This is both exciting and something I am dreading. Hence, the prayer for peace, health, and understanding. I know I can do this, and I'm not as alone as I thought. I'm never alone.