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Reality set in. As badly as I wanted to hurry up and start law school, now I'm stressed about moving. I'm excited to move; I'm just dreading it. It's soooo much work. It's so much change, and it's too much at once. This is EXACTLY why I didn't want to go to school in another state. Just the thought of the adjustment to two different environments is overwhelming.
Since my landlord has graciously agreed to let me out of my lease without penalties, they've started allowing tours. How can I have a beautifully appealing apartment if I am trying to pack up my life? Also, it was yesterday during the first tour that I realized, I actually really need to start packing.
I've been looking at apartments for weeks now, and even spoke with a realtor. But she made it seem like it was too soon since my move-in date in August 1. I think it's around the corner. I was ready to start touring places, but I am going to wait. Not just because she recommended it, but because I don't want to make repeated trips. It's far and my car is getting old. I have to go to the school for an event in three weeks and I'm planning to tour places and actually sign a lease then. And my final trip before school starts will be when I move in August. And I don't plan on returning until October, for an event I'm volunteering in.
I'm letting go of my life here. My office. That guy. My contract. When I leave in August, I will be a resident of that state for the next three years. I'm not coming back during holiday breaks and the summer, like I originally thought. I am literally relocating until 2027. It's scary for whatever reason...but I'm ready.