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He apologized for not reaching out.
I feel like I put his feelings before mine, and that reminded me of my mother. I have seen her do that countless times for my father. It's their dynamic, and it works for them. I don't want to mimic that. So putting his feeling before mine on Friday felt natural but I didn't like it as it was happening, yet I couldn't stop myself.
I found a cool apartment near the law school. I hope it lives up to the hype when I tour it. He wants to go with me. I'm letting this play out...
Another man that I've been business colleagues with for three years has finally asked me out. I didn't think I was romantically interested in him, but he does have characteristics I really like. He's smart and driven. I do not like how much he jokes around. I did tell him I would be interested in getting to know him better, because why not? Then he ruined it by sending me a "wyd" text on Friday night. He DID say in a previous convo that he wasn't looking for anything serious, but I didn't know that was code for bootycalls. Honestly.
After careful thought, I realized I'm trying to be intentional so I should not waste my time with men who are not serious about me, be it cause they're dismissive flipfloppers or covert fuckboys. It's not what I desire. I want companionship, sure - but it has to mean something and be headed somewhere.