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scared to hold your hand. scared not to have you there. chemical love. controll. rejecting. rejection. pushing you away. pulling you closer. stab. cry. guilt. false hope. break. new. risks. fun. forgetting. watching the new turn old. remembering. holding on because it warms me. take a step back. shut the lights. shut my eyes. broken promises. new (but old) lips. sorry friend. awkwardness. fighting thoughts. fighting questions. ignoring the truth.
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scared to hold your hand. scared not to have you there. chemical love. controll. rejecting. rejection. pushing you away. pulling you closer. stab. cry. guilt. false hope. break. new. risks. fun. forgetting. watching the new turn old. remembering. holding on because it warms me. take a step back. shut the lights. shut my eyes. broken promises. new (but old) lips. sorry friend. awkwardness. fighting thoughts. fighting questions. ignoring the truth.
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