Is it truly over?
AS OF THURSDAY LAST WEEK, I HAVE OFFICIALLY GRADUATED!!!
What I'm more surprised about is how, anti-climatic it felt. I didn't cry during the morning nor the evening as I went on stage and hugged people I've never really spoken one-on-one with. Is that strange?
Although it wasn't just me that felt this, it still feels stage that it's all over, in a sense. Either I'm strong-hearted, or cold-hearted, whatever you call it, or I just don't think it's entirely over. Yes, there still is the HSC exams, the last final exams, and the formal afterwards. But after that, it really may be over, never seeing those faces again, seeing that really horrible green uniform again, never hearing complaints about school again ---- WHY ISN'T IT AFFECTING ME??
Anyway, the holidays have begun and the countdown to those exams is on. But I wonder, forever wonder... the what ifs. I don't want to dwell in them cause I know it may cause me grief and really, having regrets is pointless because what's done (or isn't) is inked permanent in the past, AND LIVING IN THE NOW, AND FUTURE IS ALL THAT MATTERS.
I just spazzed on life again didn't I?
OTL
What I'm more surprised about is how, anti-climatic it felt. I didn't cry during the morning nor the evening as I went on stage and hugged people I've never really spoken one-on-one with. Is that strange?
Although it wasn't just me that felt this, it still feels stage that it's all over, in a sense. Either I'm strong-hearted, or cold-hearted, whatever you call it, or I just don't think it's entirely over. Yes, there still is the HSC exams, the last final exams, and the formal afterwards. But after that, it really may be over, never seeing those faces again, seeing that really horrible green uniform again, never hearing complaints about school again ---- WHY ISN'T IT AFFECTING ME??
Anyway, the holidays have begun and the countdown to those exams is on. But I wonder, forever wonder... the what ifs. I don't want to dwell in them cause I know it may cause me grief and really, having regrets is pointless because what's done (or isn't) is inked permanent in the past, AND LIVING IN THE NOW, AND FUTURE IS ALL THAT MATTERS.
I just spazzed on life again didn't I?
OTL