Just a Thought...
I was never part of the group, ya know? I was always off in my own little world. I liked it like that. Sure I participated in SOME things. I just didn't really care for any of those people. I guess it would be more along the lines of feeling like I didn't fit in. "You made yourself that way. You tried to be different." That may be what some people say/think about me. I've heard it before time after time. The honest truth is that I wasn't trying to be different; I just wanted to be me. I wanted to be the way I was intended to be. I'm not the popular girl. I'm not the jock. I'm not even one of the nerds. I'm just me. I could possibly be considered an outcast. It's like that everywhere for me. It was like that in school. It's like that in the workforce. It's even like that in my family. You know what though, I never wanted to be accepted by any of them. I never wanted any of them to even care about what was going on with me. But you know what would have been nice? It would have been nice to have people that I could have called pals. People I would have hung out with and not felt awkward while doing so. Yeah, there was a couple of them. One specifically who has been through a lot of the same stuff as me. One who will always be there for me, and I'll always be there for her. Everyone else I met during my teen years, at work, etc....I pretty much don't even exist to them. Maybe someday some of the people will want to try to get to know me know, and I'm just too stubborn to even let them. Why give them a chance now to be all chummy when they ignored me, act like I didn't exist, or even taunted and made fun of me? They will never EVER get a chance to even get a little bit of insight into my life. Sure, they'll be able to look me up on myspace/Lj. Sure, they'll try to be all chummy. I just wish they wouldn't act like they're my friend. You know the people. The ones that add you just because you went to school together. The kind of people that don't comment, don't leave message, simply don't really care. I hate those people. I hate them for being fake. Sure, I'll accept the friends invite, but that doesn't mean I like you. Who knows, one of these days I'll go through my myspace/Lj and weed out all the people I really didn't care for. If you're on my list (which if you're reading this, you probably are otherwise you probably wouldn't have found my page) cross your fingers and hope you don't get X-ed. Then again, if you are one of those people on my list that don't really care, then it won't really matter if you get kicked off. So no hard feelings you fake bastards