Just a bunch of ramblings....
So I'm sitting here all alone feeding the dogs. Jeremy's already asleep due to circumstances from earlier. I wish he was up with me right now. But oh well. I have to work tomorrow at 11. Yay for me....not really. It's really depressing. All I do is pretty much work and come home. Then I sleep at night. That's about it. I don't have a life anymore. I don't have many friends. It really sucks. I guess I'm in kinda a down mood now after drinking. I wish it weren't so. I wish Jeremy was up. I know I already said that. I feel bad. I feel like I hold him back from so much. Like last Monday. He was supposed to go out, and because I had a total mental, physical, and emotional breakdown he didn't. Then he said some mean things, and I said some mean things, and did some stupid shit. I felt really bad. I want him to hang out with his friends. Maybe I'm jelous. Not of his friends. I'm glad he gets to spend time with his friends. Especially since they're really cool kickass people. I guess it's because I don't have the choice to go out when I want. I don't have many friends even if I did. I have to depend on other people if I want to do something. Even when I do get a car though, I won't be able to just go out. I'll feel bad for leaving Jeremy behind. *Sigh* I can't win. Well, ok, I do win....because I get him. I love him more than life itself. He makes me so happy. I know you're prolly thinkin' he doesn't after reading that, but it's not like that at all. When I'm with him....everything....just....Iunno...gets better even if it's just a little bit better. He makes me want to live another day. I have no idea why I'm writing any of this by the way. I'm just rambling on, and none of you will probably read this. I mean it's not like I have tons of friends anyways. But yeah, I think that's really about all I have to say......I'm going to go finish feeding the dogs now. Peace.