real life entry
There are some days I really wish my father had not passed on his genes. Today would be one of those days. Sometimes I forget to take my insulin. Sometimes it's not really forgetting.
I would like to stop being so callous towards other people. Perhaps I'm losing what empathy I had? I don't know. I don't feel right. I don't feel like me. I haven't been feeling like myself in a long time. There are parts of me missing. I never knew they were there in the first place.
Good gods, I dislike mood swings. They're so exhausting.
Maybe a nap.
My mother thinks I may have a hormonal imbalance. TMI time, I can't remember ever having regular menstrual cycles. Maybe when I was 12-14, but I've never been able to set a calender by them. In the last few years, I sometimes stop having them for months, and when I do get them, they vary widely in duration, discomfort and such. This is... abnormal, right? It's mostly over the summer when my stress levels are low. No other factors apply.
The problem with having one doctor your whole life and knowing the doctor's kids is that it's kinda embarrassing to talk about any of this stuff with him. But I should probably go?
ETA: *breathes shakily* Now I've just made myself worse.
celebelai I'm sorry. I probably shouldn't have said anything.
I would like to stop being so callous towards other people. Perhaps I'm losing what empathy I had? I don't know. I don't feel right. I don't feel like me. I haven't been feeling like myself in a long time. There are parts of me missing. I never knew they were there in the first place.
Good gods, I dislike mood swings. They're so exhausting.
Maybe a nap.
My mother thinks I may have a hormonal imbalance. TMI time, I can't remember ever having regular menstrual cycles. Maybe when I was 12-14, but I've never been able to set a calender by them. In the last few years, I sometimes stop having them for months, and when I do get them, they vary widely in duration, discomfort and such. This is... abnormal, right? It's mostly over the summer when my stress levels are low. No other factors apply.
The problem with having one doctor your whole life and knowing the doctor's kids is that it's kinda embarrassing to talk about any of this stuff with him. But I should probably go?
ETA: *breathes shakily* Now I've just made myself worse.
celebelai I'm sorry. I probably shouldn't have said anything.