Dark car rides
It's been quite a couple of days! I've been driving for a lot of them, which I normally hate to do, but...all part of growing up.
First a big praise report--My grandmother purchached all of her grandchildren bonds. She bought mine in 1973--She purched all 7 for about 350 dollars. Due to the roomate and rent situation, I really needed to cash them in. We took them to the bank, and one 100 dollar bond was worth over 500 dollars! What a miracle. I only cashed in 4, I'm going to save the other 3--they are such a help. God works!
I was driving back from Lancaster tonight and I heard a song with the quote "Everything I do, I do because I love you." Granted, it wasnt a praise and worship but for some reasson it hit me that that's exactly what God keeps trying to tell us. EVERYTHING that happens to us is a product of his unconditional, overwpowering love. I started thinking about how so many of the things in my life had to happen for others to happen--even the bad things. When I was crushed from Dane, I met Eric--so that he could teach me that I didnt want to give up on love, I didnt want to end up like him. I had to meet him before I met Jay so that I could be ready to love him. I had to have Lindsay as a roomate so that he could prove to me, yet again how he makes an impossible situation possible. The loans couldnt come through with the car so that my family could prove, once again, that we can overcome any obstacle that's thrown at us. I had to work at Camp Burnt Gin so that Mr. Alexander would hire me--4 years later. I had to not be able to go back to camp so that I could meet Carlos and his amazing family. These are just a few!
Granted, there are some things I cant explain. I'll never know why my father had to die. I'll never know why my brother had to die after only 3 days. I'll never understand why kids end up with such severe disablities. I'll never understand why children have to get cancer--or anybody for that matter. I'll never understand why so many people die a day for such pointless reassons.
But you know what--there's a reasson. I might not understand it until I get to Heaven--but..Everything God does he does because he loves us.
First a big praise report--My grandmother purchached all of her grandchildren bonds. She bought mine in 1973--She purched all 7 for about 350 dollars. Due to the roomate and rent situation, I really needed to cash them in. We took them to the bank, and one 100 dollar bond was worth over 500 dollars! What a miracle. I only cashed in 4, I'm going to save the other 3--they are such a help. God works!
I was driving back from Lancaster tonight and I heard a song with the quote "Everything I do, I do because I love you." Granted, it wasnt a praise and worship but for some reasson it hit me that that's exactly what God keeps trying to tell us. EVERYTHING that happens to us is a product of his unconditional, overwpowering love. I started thinking about how so many of the things in my life had to happen for others to happen--even the bad things. When I was crushed from Dane, I met Eric--so that he could teach me that I didnt want to give up on love, I didnt want to end up like him. I had to meet him before I met Jay so that I could be ready to love him. I had to have Lindsay as a roomate so that he could prove to me, yet again how he makes an impossible situation possible. The loans couldnt come through with the car so that my family could prove, once again, that we can overcome any obstacle that's thrown at us. I had to work at Camp Burnt Gin so that Mr. Alexander would hire me--4 years later. I had to not be able to go back to camp so that I could meet Carlos and his amazing family. These are just a few!
Granted, there are some things I cant explain. I'll never know why my father had to die. I'll never know why my brother had to die after only 3 days. I'll never understand why kids end up with such severe disablities. I'll never understand why children have to get cancer--or anybody for that matter. I'll never understand why so many people die a day for such pointless reassons.
But you know what--there's a reasson. I might not understand it until I get to Heaven--but..Everything God does he does because he loves us.