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In high school, I always had the same classes with the same people. And I always wanted to be good friends with them but for some reason or another they never got beyond the "jessica-is-that-smart-but-awkward-girl-in-class." Now david is friends with all these people, and I'm kinda jealous at how quickly they accept him. I swear they fawn over him: he's popular, he's arrogant, he's funny, he's good looking, he gets in their face.
David has this sort of self-confidence and masculinity that I'm totally attracted to. He knows he's funny. He knows he's smart. He knows he's athletic. It's borderline arrogance, but not in a bad way. And in the back of my head, i always wished I could be as cool as he is. I wish our friends liked me as much as they liked him. It seemed to me that everyone loves David.
Yesterday I found David's old myspace, and I was reading his blogs form 2006 and 2007. I realized that he wasn't self-confident back then at all. He went to a private school where it wasn't important to be funny or smart, because (sadly) no one there really was. As I picture it, it's the type of school where when the girls aren't praying, they're watching Laguna Beach and the Hills.
In his blogs he kept talking about hwo he didn't fit in and how he wanted to change himself but he couldn't. And he kept wishing that he could find a girl who had the same sense of humor as him or who would accept him even though he didn't fit in.
I was kinda shocked cuz I'd never pictured David NOT being the popular one. And I kinda understand now why he gets so happy when we joke back and forth, or when we have our 'smart people talks'. I thought all of it was us being the normal smart/funny people that we are, but I guess to him it's more like I'm one-in-a-million compared to the girls from his old h.s. It kinda gives me warm fuzzies.
David has this sort of self-confidence and masculinity that I'm totally attracted to. He knows he's funny. He knows he's smart. He knows he's athletic. It's borderline arrogance, but not in a bad way. And in the back of my head, i always wished I could be as cool as he is. I wish our friends liked me as much as they liked him. It seemed to me that everyone loves David.
Yesterday I found David's old myspace, and I was reading his blogs form 2006 and 2007. I realized that he wasn't self-confident back then at all. He went to a private school where it wasn't important to be funny or smart, because (sadly) no one there really was. As I picture it, it's the type of school where when the girls aren't praying, they're watching Laguna Beach and the Hills.
In his blogs he kept talking about hwo he didn't fit in and how he wanted to change himself but he couldn't. And he kept wishing that he could find a girl who had the same sense of humor as him or who would accept him even though he didn't fit in.
I was kinda shocked cuz I'd never pictured David NOT being the popular one. And I kinda understand now why he gets so happy when we joke back and forth, or when we have our 'smart people talks'. I thought all of it was us being the normal smart/funny people that we are, but I guess to him it's more like I'm one-in-a-million compared to the girls from his old h.s. It kinda gives me warm fuzzies.