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Mar 24, 2008 15:35

Since when does it really makes sense to put someone in charge of a training program for a position they have never actually been in themselves? Let alone, they've only been on the job 6 months before me, so how much can they teach me about the company anway? I guess that is Corporate America for you.

I've always dreamed of working Corporate America. I always thought it was my calling, my desire... but I also wouldn't exactly say my current position fits in with that image I had... but my company does. It is my desire to work in headquarters in marketing. But, how much of a desire really is that? Who REALLY wants to live in or around St. Louis? I would rather make my way back towards Michigan. But with the crappy economy, it is pretty much likely that the only way I can live in Michigan and have a decent job is to keep working for Corporate America and the fear of living some place dreadful like St. Louis. I like winter, I like seasons, I don't like wearing shorts so moving south where I would need them more often is not a desire. but maybe that will be more of a motive to lose weight? Or I should just move to Canada and see what I can do for their agriculture (canola anyone?)

How petty my "issues" are. But as with the point of a journal, for me, is a means to get my thoughts down. thoughts or input is nice, but not necessarily sought after in these instances

Sometimes I need to just realize that, "hey, it's okay to quit sometimes. As long as it is for your own happiness and desires, why keep doing something you don't like just to please others?" I am confident in my ability to have a good job, its just a matter or getting the nerves to get rid of what is undersireable and figure out what is desireable.

But, as always, I put myself in a tough spot. Jim leaves for Iraq on July 28. In my mind, I figure I should just keep working at my job and stick it out while he is gone, because, what else am I going to do? Plus, I really do need the experience, besides, depending on the job, I've heard you work at your job for 2-3 years before you really get it and decide if you like it or not. Then when he gets back, well, who knows what's going to happen, but I really think we can make it work. Why do I always have to do this to myself though? It seems like I can never get into a normal relationship, one that isn't long distance. this has been the closest to normal one I've had besides the fact that he is leaving in a few short months.

But whoever said life was easy? If it was, what would be the point? Being happy couldn't be nearly as glorious as it is after some hard times, and tough times just make you stronger and have a clearer view on where you want to go.
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