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sometimes just everything goes wrong. and no one knows anything about it. and it sucks.
and i hate fighting with my family. why is my mom being soooo mean lately. she told me she doesnt like me anymore. theyre going on a family dinner on sunday, to my favorite restaurant, that we only go to on my birthday, and im not allowed to go. because she asked me why im mean to her lately,and i told her its because shes always so mean to me. so she told me to leave her room and im not allowed to go to dinner with them on sunday, which was a slap in the face itself. i dont care about that. dont punish me with going out to dinner, im not a five year old. dont punish me for defending myself, when i didnt even say it in a mean way or anything.
but i know theres a reason everythings happening right now. cuz everything happens for a reason. and i was thinking what it could be, and maybe God is trying to make me more ready for college, since he knows how much i'm not ready, and how much i don't want to go. Maybe hes trying to make me want to go. it's actually doing the opposite. id ont want to leave anything on bad terms, and i dont want to waste this time when im leaving so soon. god, i hate my life right now. and i hate when people say that. but i really do :-(
and i hate fighting with my family. why is my mom being soooo mean lately. she told me she doesnt like me anymore. theyre going on a family dinner on sunday, to my favorite restaurant, that we only go to on my birthday, and im not allowed to go. because she asked me why im mean to her lately,and i told her its because shes always so mean to me. so she told me to leave her room and im not allowed to go to dinner with them on sunday, which was a slap in the face itself. i dont care about that. dont punish me with going out to dinner, im not a five year old. dont punish me for defending myself, when i didnt even say it in a mean way or anything.
but i know theres a reason everythings happening right now. cuz everything happens for a reason. and i was thinking what it could be, and maybe God is trying to make me more ready for college, since he knows how much i'm not ready, and how much i don't want to go. Maybe hes trying to make me want to go. it's actually doing the opposite. id ont want to leave anything on bad terms, and i dont want to waste this time when im leaving so soon. god, i hate my life right now. and i hate when people say that. but i really do :-(