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ARGH! why the hell am i upset... i'm sooo sick of working through all these things i want to be able to do!!!! i feel like i never ever get to hang out with my friends anymore, and it SUCKS. i love myf riends so much, i got sooo lucky to get some of the best friends in the world, and i never get to see them cuz i work/ babysit ALL THE TIME. i miss peoples birthday parties, and i miss just being able to hang out. it's been sooooo long since ive just gone to the movies. or done ANYTHING just laid back and fun and spontaneous like that. in 5 years, what im gonna remember is working all the time, and iw ant to remember fun nights just hanging out wtih friends. even if its just doing nothing, just being with friends!! argh
don't get me wrong. i love my job. i love babysitting. i love the people i work with, and i always have fun working. there are some crazy people that come in and its always amusing. its a chance to get away from everything else. fred tickles me relentlessly cuz i stutter when im laughing from being tickled. its fun. but the hours SUCK. i thought it would be good cuz i dont have to worry about it during the school week, but i want my weekends back. it was fine for a long time, but i havent had a whole night of just hanging out for soooooo long! the most would be for like an hour after a football game. i need money though.
sorry that was like 2 paragraphs of whining when i know i have a really good life. i feel kinda bad about that when i know im lucky to have a job i love and to have friends to miss. but it just gets to me sometimes. and i feel really badly trying to take off of work cuz then someone else has to go in for me and there arent many people that can do that. as in like one
at least the sox won. that was pretty sweet! i don't understand cubs fans who cheer against the sox. im a cubs fan too, but the cubs didn't make it, so why not cheer for the sox, another chicago team? they really are a good team this year, i watched the whole series, they were amazing.
kk, im gonna go finish up some homework. one more question in psych and then the math assignment. i have to LEAVE for school at 6:30 tomorrow- gay. just so my brother can get there by 6:40 to work out. i have no idea what im gonna do in the morning. maybe get ahead in some math since my grade sucks in there right now. i had a really bad dream last night so i woke up at 4:30 in the morning and was scared to go back to sleep lol. i thought i was totally 100% done with college apps, but i got some letter from carthage that they still need my application fee, but i paid with a credit card online, so i need to call them tomorrow and sort that out. and i dunno what to do about olivet nazarene- they randomly offered me a 36,000 dollar scholarship, 9,000 a year. i really don't know if i would even want to go there though. i need to start my scholarship essays.
sidenote 1: some guys are stupid. and complicated.
sidenote 2: sorry this entry was all like complaining. i don't like having entries like that, but it seriously does help to get all the frustration out lol. i love you all, especially if you read that whole thing! <3
don't get me wrong. i love my job. i love babysitting. i love the people i work with, and i always have fun working. there are some crazy people that come in and its always amusing. its a chance to get away from everything else. fred tickles me relentlessly cuz i stutter when im laughing from being tickled. its fun. but the hours SUCK. i thought it would be good cuz i dont have to worry about it during the school week, but i want my weekends back. it was fine for a long time, but i havent had a whole night of just hanging out for soooooo long! the most would be for like an hour after a football game. i need money though.
sorry that was like 2 paragraphs of whining when i know i have a really good life. i feel kinda bad about that when i know im lucky to have a job i love and to have friends to miss. but it just gets to me sometimes. and i feel really badly trying to take off of work cuz then someone else has to go in for me and there arent many people that can do that. as in like one
at least the sox won. that was pretty sweet! i don't understand cubs fans who cheer against the sox. im a cubs fan too, but the cubs didn't make it, so why not cheer for the sox, another chicago team? they really are a good team this year, i watched the whole series, they were amazing.
kk, im gonna go finish up some homework. one more question in psych and then the math assignment. i have to LEAVE for school at 6:30 tomorrow- gay. just so my brother can get there by 6:40 to work out. i have no idea what im gonna do in the morning. maybe get ahead in some math since my grade sucks in there right now. i had a really bad dream last night so i woke up at 4:30 in the morning and was scared to go back to sleep lol. i thought i was totally 100% done with college apps, but i got some letter from carthage that they still need my application fee, but i paid with a credit card online, so i need to call them tomorrow and sort that out. and i dunno what to do about olivet nazarene- they randomly offered me a 36,000 dollar scholarship, 9,000 a year. i really don't know if i would even want to go there though. i need to start my scholarship essays.
sidenote 1: some guys are stupid. and complicated.
sidenote 2: sorry this entry was all like complaining. i don't like having entries like that, but it seriously does help to get all the frustration out lol. i love you all, especially if you read that whole thing! <3