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i havent updated this thing in FOREVER! and i still have like nothing to say, but ill update anyway, cuz im just that big of a procrastinator. i did, however, finish all three of my summer reading books, with a whole day left to go. i think thats the best ive ever done in higshcool. woo hoo for improving! i have about 2 hours worth of notes left to do after this, and tomorrow is devoted to college apps. i finished my essay for wesleyan!!! pretty excited about that. and i did all the other apps minus the 2 other essays. im trying to figure out if i can use my wes essay for bradley too. ill ask mrs. blecher. ive become pretty tight with her lol. i seriously love that lady.
school starts wednesday!! im so excited...kinda. i wish i could get more stuff done before school starts...to be exact, finish up my application essays, and finish cleaning my room which has gotten much worse since my first effort. itll happen sooner or later. SHIT i forgot to make an appt with my counselor today- i really need to remember to do that and ask her to read over my applications. also im kinda sad schools starting cuz im not gonna have much time to hang out with friends again :-/ between school and working every saturday, every other friday....that leaves like one night every 2 weeks, and any time after 11 on the other nights. and i want to go to bed by 1 this year, and not as many naps. we shall see!
theres also something else i wanna say, which maybe i shouldnt write on here, but i think everythings pretty much over so it should be ok. i know a couple ppl thought bad things about everything that happened with dave, but honestly, i was just thinking about how much that whole experience taught me. ive become SUCH a stronger person because of everything that happened with that. i remember how upset i used to get and its kind of disgusting to me now. and i remember once i was upset and i wrote it in a journal, and someone left an anonymous comment about everything, and i was by judys when i read it, and i felt bad having it up so i deleted the comment, but it made me think alot, and i realized that that person was soooo right. and whoever u are, thanks for writing that comment, cuz it really did help me, even though i deleted it at the time. there are so many girls who depend on their boyfriends or whatever for their own happiness, and thats so wrong. you should never depend on a guy for your happiness. he might do something to make you unhappy, but you shouldnt depend on him for ur happiness. its just a way better way of thinking like this, and im really glad everything happened. i honestly think everything with dave is over, adn i dont mind it so much, cuz i honestly feel like it was a stepping stone in my life, one of those life experiences u need to have to teach u so much. everything happens for a reason.
now i need to go get stuff done! my hamstrings almost 100% again, and my cold is close to being gone, but not gone yet. wooo school should be fun this year! did i mention i really really hope i get into illinois wesleyan?! ahh!! alright, goodnight everyone, sweet dreams!