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omgomgomg this is so incredibly horrible. i'm seriously sitting here stressing out, not knowing what to do. all i can say is i'm sorry, i will try so incredibly hard to change. it means everything to me to change, to make things better, i've made subconcious mistakes that are unacceptable. Ellen...i know you aren't in the mood to even listen/look at me, which is completely understandable. i love you, believe it or not, i. love. you. you are one of my best friends that i will never forget in the course of my lifetime. you mean so much to me, i hope you will forgive me. i know it will take some time, but i'm willing to wait if it means having you as my friend again. i've betrayed your trust, your friendship, and you, i'll never ever feel completely good about our relationship again, knowing that i have such a bad history and record when it comes to trust. i gtg study