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[softball_chik89]

So yeah, in general, my life sucks. The reasons being, i might have to get another surgery, and because my boyfriend obviously doesnt want anything to do with me, or he just doesnt care about calling me. So what ever. Ill wait it out because theres nothing else i can do. I wish there was but im done calling sounding desperate when you dont even

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hello

[catch_that_ball]

why would you need a surgery

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[softball_chik89]

nothing big, lol i dont really wanna talk about it if thats okay lol its kinda awkward lol

[jillyzillybean]

i hate to say it....but get used to it, they ALL are like it. but if u complain enuff he'll get the picture. Nick is just understanding now that i get upset when he doesnt call or something. AND ITS BEEN 2 1/2 YEARS!!! but yeah..do it to him a few times and he might understand. but dont worry i still love you! I saw him the other day and tried to talk to him- but i had strep so it didnt sound to good...he isnt much of a talker is he?? lol. well gimme a call so we can get together or something b4 the summer ends!!

<3 Jill

p.s.-dont die- cuz then i will have no one to help me blame isreal!! :0)

[softball_chik89]

Yeah, ive done it once. Maybe its just not enough yet, i guess ill try again even though hes explained why to me. lol What ever.
Omg you and Nick have been together soooo long. Ah. You guys are my heros. :-D
I dont know, he has mood swings. lol most of the time i cant get him to shut up. lol

i wont die. Because it is Isreals fault and we have to get him back lol
<333

[jazzyismygodess]

Gared cares about you- I'm SURE of it. I'm positve that he wants everything to do with you, he just needs space and he'll come around in his own time. He has his stages and in a couple weeks he may want to spend every day with you. Gared's moods depend on the way the wind is blowing but I'm sure he cares about you and wants to spend time with you.

He'll call you to hang out soon, I know he will.

I hope you don't need another surgery

*hugs* <--- I know online hugs aren't always helpful, but this one is a hug w/ love so it should be more effective than your average online hug. lol.

feel better.

I <3 u.
-Jazzy

[softball_chik89]

I know he does. And he explained why, and this might sound wierd but its good he stayed away. lol I know that probably makes NO sense, but if you know what was going on man you would agree. lol God and i hate how im so...like doubtful becasue when im with him i know that he cares and wants to be with me. And then i feel bad. I need to stop this doubting thing. Its bad. I mean, i need to be more confident...i guess you cound say that at least. Becuase i love him sooooo much. And now i know that its returned. :-D YAY!

Yeah i hope i dont need one either, it would totally SUCK. And i would probably emotionally break down. Which would, not be good...at all.

Jasmine, your online hugs are always good for me. :-D

Ahhhh i have two questions for you.
1) Does Mackenzie have herpes because that what ive heard. lol hHAHAHHAHAHAHa lol
2) do you have her eljay thing? screen name thing? lol
<3

[jazzyismygodess]

You're right- you just need to be more confident. ^_^. I'm so glad you know he cares again, he wouldn't want you doubting it, bc cares. lol. Is that making sense? I sure hope so. GarednERica sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G first comes LOVE, then comes marriage, then comes... ect ect ect.

anyhoo,

1) Mack doesn't have herpes. lol. But I heard that too, but it isn't true.
2) She doesn't have an LJ though I bugged her to get one for like EVER. She has a myspace instead. lol. I'm not sure what her name is- I think she told me once and I forgot but if you went to the site and searched you could probably find her.

<3 ya
Jazzy

[woundedwithin]

Erica feel better. You can't fucking die! I won't let you! Well not now anyway. I know how you feel Erica. Where it seems like everything in your life is going completely wrong and you just feel that there's no way out. But there is. All these feelings and insecurities will pass. Because one day you'll realize that your life doesn't suck and that you need to stop thinking negatively. And I'm still working on that. All of it.

[softball_chik89]

Dont worry, im fine. And im just an emotional freak at times. But you help alot with your words of wisdom. lol HAHAHA. Sorry. :-D Im kidding.

Meh i wont die...yet. Maybe later. :-D

[woundedwithin]

What's so funny if I have words of wisdom? Okay maybe that is funny.

[softball_chik89]

Just alittle bit. But im sorry. It really helps me. :-D You have many calming words of.....erm.....wisdom. lol :-D