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I've been really depressed this week. I know I don't really have a good reason to be, though. It is weird, because I don't like to go actually see my therapist, but when I haven't seen her in a while, I want to go talk to her. I guess I want someone to understand me without thinking I sound stupid. I still am not completely comfortable sharing everything with her, but I'm getting there. The only people I can really tell EVERYTHING to are Kristin Schwartz and Stephanie Hassoldt. Without them, I don't know what I would do.
My dad has been really moody and snapping back at me all week. And my mom is always acting as if I never do anything right. She makes me feel intimidated and as if I suck at everything. I feel like I have to impress her...she's my MOM for goodness' sake! I'm also apparently getting chubby again, according to her, so I'm going to go on a diet. My sisters are being little spoiled brats lately. I hate it at home. That's the only reason I've been going to school on time: so I can get out of my house. At least at school, I don't feel like I have to impress people as much or live up to my parents expectations of me. It's the only place where I can be free of them.
Sometimes I wish I could run away...a lot of the time I feel like cutting myself again. I haven't done it in a few months. Usually, I just go play my keyboard or sleep instead...just so I don't end up doing it again.
Tomorrow, I'm going to see Dracula and I'm going out for lunch, so I hope that will put me in a little bit of a better mood. It's time for my dinner, so I guess I'll go and SIU with my wonderful(not) family!
My dad has been really moody and snapping back at me all week. And my mom is always acting as if I never do anything right. She makes me feel intimidated and as if I suck at everything. I feel like I have to impress her...she's my MOM for goodness' sake! I'm also apparently getting chubby again, according to her, so I'm going to go on a diet. My sisters are being little spoiled brats lately. I hate it at home. That's the only reason I've been going to school on time: so I can get out of my house. At least at school, I don't feel like I have to impress people as much or live up to my parents expectations of me. It's the only place where I can be free of them.
Sometimes I wish I could run away...a lot of the time I feel like cutting myself again. I haven't done it in a few months. Usually, I just go play my keyboard or sleep instead...just so I don't end up doing it again.
Tomorrow, I'm going to see Dracula and I'm going out for lunch, so I hope that will put me in a little bit of a better mood. It's time for my dinner, so I guess I'll go and SIU with my wonderful(not) family!