The Big C
So I don't have asthma.
And it's been a rather interesting summer so far..
I have cancer.
Really didn't see that coming. Started Chemo this week, and everything seems to be happening faster than I can even comprehend it. My hair should start falling out soon, I haven't looked for a wig yet, but anytime now. I'm so limited and can't do anything. I crashed my car too, that was also an event. Totalled the poor baby, AND Chloe died. Luck has been on the rather shitty side. However, the people have been amazing. The only thing that upsets me is the people I thought we're my "real" genuine friends, are no where to be found. It's odd, but you think in a life or death situation, people would be more so wanting to spend time with you, not avoiding. I am not complaining however. They just can't deal with the situation, it is a thing of fear. Just makes me realize things I HADN'T PREVIOUSLY seen. In a way, I'm thankful. It's a way to start over. To actually LIVE. Thank you all for being there, those of you who are. I can't even begin to thank you enough. I can't. I don't know where to even begin. Just know that you are in my hearts.
And you are amazing.
Sincerely amazing people.
And it's been a rather interesting summer so far..
I have cancer.
Really didn't see that coming. Started Chemo this week, and everything seems to be happening faster than I can even comprehend it. My hair should start falling out soon, I haven't looked for a wig yet, but anytime now. I'm so limited and can't do anything. I crashed my car too, that was also an event. Totalled the poor baby, AND Chloe died. Luck has been on the rather shitty side. However, the people have been amazing. The only thing that upsets me is the people I thought we're my "real" genuine friends, are no where to be found. It's odd, but you think in a life or death situation, people would be more so wanting to spend time with you, not avoiding. I am not complaining however. They just can't deal with the situation, it is a thing of fear. Just makes me realize things I HADN'T PREVIOUSLY seen. In a way, I'm thankful. It's a way to start over. To actually LIVE. Thank you all for being there, those of you who are. I can't even begin to thank you enough. I can't. I don't know where to even begin. Just know that you are in my hearts.
And you are amazing.
Sincerely amazing people.