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well the play was good :) i was proud of all those wonderful high school friends. and then i was saddened by how the smh theatre is bigger than norman james. they just HAD to renovate tawes right now. wonderful. (at least it'll be done in time for MY thesis) (i don't even know if i want to use tawes for my show) (i don't even know if i want to do a directing thesis)
as you can tell i'm going crazy
my brother was in a car accident tonight; he was driving home with george and they swerved to miss a deer and the jeep flipped. george is at the umd hospital and he has a fractured skull and is going in and out of consciousness and my brother's at christiana and he has a concussion and a blood clot and they're keeping him there over night.
so i'm rightfully worried and scared. and i have the biggest headache. i should really take ibuprofen for that.
and it's funny, i'm right back where i was when james died. sitting at my computer, waiting for people to call to hear news, making sure people know things are fine and that we're fine.
full circle, huh.
i'm actually glad that i had planned to stay at home tonight, because i don't know how i would've managed staying at school. though at least i would've maybe been able to wander down onto the first floor and been able to have someone there. it kindof sucks being alone.
i've been feeling alone a lot lately. well, not alone so much as lonely. and i hate that i feel lonely. and i hate that the reason that i feel lonely is so STUPID and superficial and it really shouldn't matter or affect me that much, but it does and it's awful. ugh.
and now i feel sick. GREAT.
i hope i can get some sleep tonight; i told jory i'd be at rehearsal tomorrow at 2. oof.
as you can tell i'm going crazy
my brother was in a car accident tonight; he was driving home with george and they swerved to miss a deer and the jeep flipped. george is at the umd hospital and he has a fractured skull and is going in and out of consciousness and my brother's at christiana and he has a concussion and a blood clot and they're keeping him there over night.
so i'm rightfully worried and scared. and i have the biggest headache. i should really take ibuprofen for that.
and it's funny, i'm right back where i was when james died. sitting at my computer, waiting for people to call to hear news, making sure people know things are fine and that we're fine.
full circle, huh.
i'm actually glad that i had planned to stay at home tonight, because i don't know how i would've managed staying at school. though at least i would've maybe been able to wander down onto the first floor and been able to have someone there. it kindof sucks being alone.
i've been feeling alone a lot lately. well, not alone so much as lonely. and i hate that i feel lonely. and i hate that the reason that i feel lonely is so STUPID and superficial and it really shouldn't matter or affect me that much, but it does and it's awful. ugh.
and now i feel sick. GREAT.
i hope i can get some sleep tonight; i told jory i'd be at rehearsal tomorrow at 2. oof.