Accepting Statistic Status

[soft_heart_hard]

So good at lying to myself, I forgot I was.
All this time.
Distractions...
Embracing reality will be a challenge.
Accepting truth hurts.
I don't know where to begin.
What to do... what to do.......

Never thought caring could be bad.
Never knew happiness could hurt.

I heard the story so many times.
I thought I understood.
The idea was clear...
But I couldn't substitute my details.
It all applies.
I'm depressingly normal.
Averagely human.

Optimism be damned.
How can I ever want anything
If I'm so good at being content?
I need to see blue.